So, I've changed my mind again...I will not write again until I start hcg. I decided not to start the hcg until I get back on Monday. Mostly, because I need some time for shopping and I don't have time before I leave. There are still things I need/want to feel prepared... I should have shopped already, but didn't have/make time. I hope I'm not already subconsciously trying to sabotage my efforts!:(
I also have not finished reading through the protocol! I can't really start without that!! But I've gotten bogged down with some of the psychological suggestions Dr. Simeons goes through. I will be blogging more about that--and even vlogging about it--soon.
So, I will go away for the weekend and come home and start the protocol. I didn't really want to be away when I started anyway since I want to start my vlog when I start my experience as well. We invested in a webcam, so I don't want to waste it!:)
Tonight I'm going to be early. I hope to get on a schedule of early to bed and early to rise. I think it will really help with the protocol to just go to bed when I'm hungry at night. I'm also looking forward to some detox baths. I hear they really induce good sleep.:)
So, until Monday, October 4th, I will not be blogging. Out of sight, but hopefully, not out of mind!
Thursday, September 30, 2010
Tuesday, September 28, 2010
new plan...
I have changed my mind! (Woman's prerogative) I'm going to start loading on Oct. 1st!! I really can't wait. Even though I will be out of town, I felt I could stand to load while there. In fact, it may make everything easier if I load on fatty restaurant food and I don't have to have any in the house, if you know what I mean?!
I'm so excited and I wish I could start now, but I just can't see doing that. I would be such a DUD and I don't know how I would manage to prepare my food while visiting...But I will have two days of VLCD while my cousin is still visiting so I'll definitely still be cooking. I was thinking of making a pot of chili (not a favorite of mine, but good for cool/cold weather) and the next day we can eat on the way to the airport--or I could make a pot of spaghetti (also not a favorite of mine). Since they're not favorites, I'm hoping to be able to stand the smell...:) If I can't, they are simple enough dishes that my family can cook them.
I've been telling more people than I had intended. I guess lying about being on the "Butt Diet" (like Mamaclok) did not come easily for me!lol I wish I could think of something, but I couldn't. The other thing is that I'm in some small groups and I really wanted prayer for this. I will need a lot of support and prayer support mostly.
I wish I had more to write about, but everything is very boring now because I haven't started. Tomorrow I take my measurements and I do weigh myself every day, but I am not quite ready to post them!:( I feel like it will be MUCH easier to post them (along with before and after photos) after I've lost something.:)
I'm very encouraged by everyone on the hcgdieters group and by so many of the before and after pictures. I hope to be a similar encouragement with my own story some day! I don't know of anyone else around me that has done hcg. So, maybe my story will encourage those that live near and around me.
I was thinking about this. I mean, if someone didn't want to tell others about hcg then I wouldn't know if they had lost weight this way, yet I feel all the people I do know of that have lost weight have been truthful with me about how they lost it! Too few have lost and too many are still overweight and obese. It's my dream to help others find freedom from this in their lives!! I don't think I would become a "coach" or anything, but I would certainly walk through it with someone. I would also recommend any of the amazing coaches that are out there!
Can't wait to get started on the new healthy me!! I'm actually proud of myself for researching and doing this. It's taking some guts!lol
I'm so excited and I wish I could start now, but I just can't see doing that. I would be such a DUD and I don't know how I would manage to prepare my food while visiting...But I will have two days of VLCD while my cousin is still visiting so I'll definitely still be cooking. I was thinking of making a pot of chili (not a favorite of mine, but good for cool/cold weather) and the next day we can eat on the way to the airport--or I could make a pot of spaghetti (also not a favorite of mine). Since they're not favorites, I'm hoping to be able to stand the smell...:) If I can't, they are simple enough dishes that my family can cook them.
I've been telling more people than I had intended. I guess lying about being on the "Butt Diet" (like Mamaclok) did not come easily for me!lol I wish I could think of something, but I couldn't. The other thing is that I'm in some small groups and I really wanted prayer for this. I will need a lot of support and prayer support mostly.
I wish I had more to write about, but everything is very boring now because I haven't started. Tomorrow I take my measurements and I do weigh myself every day, but I am not quite ready to post them!:( I feel like it will be MUCH easier to post them (along with before and after photos) after I've lost something.:)
I'm very encouraged by everyone on the hcgdieters group and by so many of the before and after pictures. I hope to be a similar encouragement with my own story some day! I don't know of anyone else around me that has done hcg. So, maybe my story will encourage those that live near and around me.
I was thinking about this. I mean, if someone didn't want to tell others about hcg then I wouldn't know if they had lost weight this way, yet I feel all the people I do know of that have lost weight have been truthful with me about how they lost it! Too few have lost and too many are still overweight and obese. It's my dream to help others find freedom from this in their lives!! I don't think I would become a "coach" or anything, but I would certainly walk through it with someone. I would also recommend any of the amazing coaches that are out there!
Can't wait to get started on the new healthy me!! I'm actually proud of myself for researching and doing this. It's taking some guts!lol
Saturday, September 25, 2010
Arrival...
The hcg is here! The hcg is here! Things are gonna start happening to me now! (Quote from a movie--"paraphrased to suit my needs"--anyone know what movie?:) I almost want to start today, but I know I would have problems in WI. I have to weigh my food (especially the meats) and prepare it specially. I couldn't do that there-at least I'll have enough OTHER issues to deal with than to mess with that.
So, my plan is still to start loading on the 4th. I'm considering loading on the 1st and 2nd-because I know we will be eating a lot those days anyway. I can then not eat breakfast on the 3rd, take some apples and melba toasts/breadsticks for the trip and eat the rest of my food when I get home. Many people express extreme hunger on the first day of VLCD (Very Low Calorie Diet) so I would have to also prepare by bringing teas that I'm allowed to have. Hmmmm....Still considering this.
I just might do it. I'm so excited about starting! I keep thinking about this past 10 years and how long it took me to gain the weight and totally mess up my metabolism! Now, I want to eradicate all the negative effects in just a few months? In some ways it seems ludicrous! Yet, I've seen so many true stories on the hcgdieters yahoo group and v-logs and I just really respect what Dr. Simeons has to say. He "had me at hello"!
I'm going to post Dr. Simeons Pounds and Inches here and someday, if I learn how to do it, I'll put it on the side in a links section or whatever for people to refer to! But here it is: http://hcgdietinfo.com/HCG_Diet_Dr_Simeons_Manuscript.htm I hope anyone reading this--whether lurking or an actual "follower"--will be inspired as I was.:)
Later!
So, my plan is still to start loading on the 4th. I'm considering loading on the 1st and 2nd-because I know we will be eating a lot those days anyway. I can then not eat breakfast on the 3rd, take some apples and melba toasts/breadsticks for the trip and eat the rest of my food when I get home. Many people express extreme hunger on the first day of VLCD (Very Low Calorie Diet) so I would have to also prepare by bringing teas that I'm allowed to have. Hmmmm....Still considering this.
I just might do it. I'm so excited about starting! I keep thinking about this past 10 years and how long it took me to gain the weight and totally mess up my metabolism! Now, I want to eradicate all the negative effects in just a few months? In some ways it seems ludicrous! Yet, I've seen so many true stories on the hcgdieters yahoo group and v-logs and I just really respect what Dr. Simeons has to say. He "had me at hello"!
I'm going to post Dr. Simeons Pounds and Inches here and someday, if I learn how to do it, I'll put it on the side in a links section or whatever for people to refer to! But here it is: http://hcgdietinfo.com/HCG_Diet_Dr_Simeons_Manuscript.htm I hope anyone reading this--whether lurking or an actual "follower"--will be inspired as I was.:)
Later!
Friday, September 24, 2010
looking to the future...
So, I'm anxiously awaiting the arrival of my hcg! I checked the tracking number on usps.com and it's in CHICAGO!! Yay! That means I should have it tomorrow, right? It appears to have been shipped directly from Hong Kong to Chicago--which surprised me because I thought it would come through New York or something. Anyway, the point is, it's almost here and I can't wait!
Now, that seems a little strange considering I'm not even starting until October 4th, but I will feel so relieved to have it here. It'll be my little security blanket...
I'm reading Dr. Simeon's protocol and this man sounds so compassionate and SMART! I love reading his words because I feel as though he really understands. I love this statement (referring to obesity): "I have always held that overeating is the result of the disorder, not its cause" because the majority of "fat" people that I know actually eat LESS than the majority of "skinny" people I know. It always amazed me that my overweight friends would have to watch everything they ate and so many skinny people would eat and eat and eat and not gain weight! I've known of technically obese people that have eaten as little as 600 calories per day and remained overweight-although they were tired all the time and looked gray. I have known thin people that would eat constantly throughout the day and they had the most amazing energy levels and enthusiasm!
Well, I don't want to keep eating so little and yet gaining weight so easily. I have only recently (in the past few months) challenged myself to eat and talk about eating in front of people as though I were thin. It has been quite the experience because people really give you LOOKS!LOL They really look at me in the way that always caused me to cringe inside and eat as little as possible--even alone (as though they would find out!!). I have also noted, by the way, that while I'm eating as though I'm thin, I have not gained one pound! Eating throughout the day--without thinking about it or over-analyzing it--has not caused me to gain weight, but neither has it caused me to lose any. So, that's why I'm going to do the hcg. I'm going to lose the weight and then live like I'm skinny for the rest of my days...
I can live with that!
Now, that seems a little strange considering I'm not even starting until October 4th, but I will feel so relieved to have it here. It'll be my little security blanket...
I'm reading Dr. Simeon's protocol and this man sounds so compassionate and SMART! I love reading his words because I feel as though he really understands. I love this statement (referring to obesity): "I have always held that overeating is the result of the disorder, not its cause" because the majority of "fat" people that I know actually eat LESS than the majority of "skinny" people I know. It always amazed me that my overweight friends would have to watch everything they ate and so many skinny people would eat and eat and eat and not gain weight! I've known of technically obese people that have eaten as little as 600 calories per day and remained overweight-although they were tired all the time and looked gray. I have known thin people that would eat constantly throughout the day and they had the most amazing energy levels and enthusiasm!
Well, I don't want to keep eating so little and yet gaining weight so easily. I have only recently (in the past few months) challenged myself to eat and talk about eating in front of people as though I were thin. It has been quite the experience because people really give you LOOKS!LOL They really look at me in the way that always caused me to cringe inside and eat as little as possible--even alone (as though they would find out!!). I have also noted, by the way, that while I'm eating as though I'm thin, I have not gained one pound! Eating throughout the day--without thinking about it or over-analyzing it--has not caused me to gain weight, but neither has it caused me to lose any. So, that's why I'm going to do the hcg. I'm going to lose the weight and then live like I'm skinny for the rest of my days...
I can live with that!
figuring it out...
I'm not writing much at first, because I'm still figuring out everything. Reading the Pounds and Inches protocol...reading the hcgdieters and newbies groups on yahoo...watching YouTube vlogs of people doing hcg...preparing to make my own vlog!! (Yes, I'm very excited about the last thing!:) I'm still waiting for my hcg to arrive--I have NO idea what's going on THERE! I ordered my hcg from pharmacy escrow 11 days ago (Sept. 13) and have watched it be in Hong Kong and right now it's in "Origin Post is Preparing Shipment" mode...whatever that is?
So, while I'm waiting, I'm getting ready. I have my scale (OXO brand that we bought from Amazon); I have my webcam (that we also ordered on Amazon); I have SOME of my food; I'm reading and re-reading the protocol; I'm trying to learn from others' mistakes by reading the hcg yahoo groups...AND trying to decide if I should do the Rx hcg sub-lingually or as an injection? At first I thought I'd do it sub-lingually since I used to have to give myself a shot every day on an MS medication and I hated it. But then I realized that I can't really hold anything in my mouth for any length of time so I would HAVE to take it by injection! I figured, at that point, that at least I knew HOW to do the injections... But in the end, I kept practicing with the Colloidal Silver and B12 drops until I could hold it in my mouth for 5 minutes or longer, and now I CAN!:)
Mamaclok says she holds it for 15 minutes and if I could get to that, I would surely do it! But I think the minimum is 5 minutes and now I know I can do that--so I'm good!:)
I also thought I should do injections because you use less--so the three 5000 ius of hcg that I ordered would last longer. But then there is all that needle care, etc... Hcg isn't THAT expensive! I can always order more--right? Plus, I think the 5000 iu size will keep as long as I'm using the amounts necessary for the sub-lingual method. I'm afraid I ordered the wrong size to do injections.
Then, I considered that if I decide it's working for me and I'm not straining to follow the protocol, I could choose to continue if I'm doing it sublingually. Also, I won't have to stop once per week because of the immunity issue. Now, I saw that Mamaclok apparently had an immunity issue and perhaps I would, too, but I feel I could recognize the signs and I'm prepared for that.
My pattern is of losing to lose weight only to a certain "plateau" and not losing further--no matter how I adjust my eating/exercise habits. The last few times I have lost weight, I've lost it to the 170s. I'm sorry, but I just can't believe I'm supposed to weigh 170 when I weighed 135-150 for many, many years before I took steroids!! But, if I seem to "stall" in the 170s, I'm going to stick it out. I'm going to continue with the protocol and see if I can't get past it. I can only do this if I use the sub-lingual method.
So...I really think I'm going to try the sub-lingual method!
If my hcg ever gets out of Hong Kong I'm ON MY WAY!!:)
So, while I'm waiting, I'm getting ready. I have my scale (OXO brand that we bought from Amazon); I have my webcam (that we also ordered on Amazon); I have SOME of my food; I'm reading and re-reading the protocol; I'm trying to learn from others' mistakes by reading the hcg yahoo groups...AND trying to decide if I should do the Rx hcg sub-lingually or as an injection? At first I thought I'd do it sub-lingually since I used to have to give myself a shot every day on an MS medication and I hated it. But then I realized that I can't really hold anything in my mouth for any length of time so I would HAVE to take it by injection! I figured, at that point, that at least I knew HOW to do the injections... But in the end, I kept practicing with the Colloidal Silver and B12 drops until I could hold it in my mouth for 5 minutes or longer, and now I CAN!:)
Mamaclok says she holds it for 15 minutes and if I could get to that, I would surely do it! But I think the minimum is 5 minutes and now I know I can do that--so I'm good!:)
I also thought I should do injections because you use less--so the three 5000 ius of hcg that I ordered would last longer. But then there is all that needle care, etc... Hcg isn't THAT expensive! I can always order more--right? Plus, I think the 5000 iu size will keep as long as I'm using the amounts necessary for the sub-lingual method. I'm afraid I ordered the wrong size to do injections.
Then, I considered that if I decide it's working for me and I'm not straining to follow the protocol, I could choose to continue if I'm doing it sublingually. Also, I won't have to stop once per week because of the immunity issue. Now, I saw that Mamaclok apparently had an immunity issue and perhaps I would, too, but I feel I could recognize the signs and I'm prepared for that.
My pattern is of losing to lose weight only to a certain "plateau" and not losing further--no matter how I adjust my eating/exercise habits. The last few times I have lost weight, I've lost it to the 170s. I'm sorry, but I just can't believe I'm supposed to weigh 170 when I weighed 135-150 for many, many years before I took steroids!! But, if I seem to "stall" in the 170s, I'm going to stick it out. I'm going to continue with the protocol and see if I can't get past it. I can only do this if I use the sub-lingual method.
So...I really think I'm going to try the sub-lingual method!
If my hcg ever gets out of Hong Kong I'm ON MY WAY!!:)
Monday, September 20, 2010
nervous...
I'm getting ready to start hcg in about 2 weeks! I'm super excited, but also very, very nervous... I have done so many diets in the past--I hope this will be my LAST! I've done a lot of research about hcg and I feel that it has the most likelihood of being my last "diet"--although hcg is considered a "protocol" not a "diet". The medical definition for the word protocol is: "the plan for carrying out a scientific study or a patient's treatment regimen." The hcg protocol was developed by an doctor in Italy named Dr. A.T.W.Simeons. He wrote a paper called "Pounds and Inches" which you can find online if you google it.
What drew me to the hcg protocol was the claim that it will reset my metabolism-or my hypothalamus gland. After rounds of steroids and other medications for MS, I have gotten to the point where I think my metabolism got "re-set" at a higher point. Losing weight since being on steroids has been SO HARD, but even worse was KEEPING it off! After losing 22 lbs on one diet program (considered one of the "healthiest") I hit a "plateau". After a few weeks, I started getting all kinds of advice about what I should do to get unstuck. The problem was, I was DOING all those things! (At least the smart ones.:) After a little over a year and a half of trying to lose more weight, I finally decided to try their maintenance program. Within one week I had gained more than 10 lbs back! Almost half of what I'd lost! I freaked out and tried to go back, but my body SCREAMED at me not to eat so few calories... So, in the end, I gained it all back-PLUS some... It's an age-old story and I've heard it from many people.
Well, this was the 3rd or 4th time I had lost a significant amount only to gain it back and my husband expressed that he was worried about me. I got mad about that-because I so desperately wanted to try again! I was getting so tired of being this weight! For almost 10 years now, I've been carrying an extra 50-60 lbs over my already 15 lbs to heavy weight. I don't feel like "Myself". I feel like I am a prisoner in this large body and it keeps me from living life to the fullest!
I don't want to lose and gain and lose and gain anymore, but I also don't want to get stuck losing weight only to end up still stuck at 40 lbs overweight! I am hoping hcg will get me over the hump!
This is my hope. I would love it if some people would find my blog and choose to follow my journey. Perhaps it will inspire you to try it also!
God bless you in your efforts and if you pray, please pray for mine!
What drew me to the hcg protocol was the claim that it will reset my metabolism-or my hypothalamus gland. After rounds of steroids and other medications for MS, I have gotten to the point where I think my metabolism got "re-set" at a higher point. Losing weight since being on steroids has been SO HARD, but even worse was KEEPING it off! After losing 22 lbs on one diet program (considered one of the "healthiest") I hit a "plateau". After a few weeks, I started getting all kinds of advice about what I should do to get unstuck. The problem was, I was DOING all those things! (At least the smart ones.:) After a little over a year and a half of trying to lose more weight, I finally decided to try their maintenance program. Within one week I had gained more than 10 lbs back! Almost half of what I'd lost! I freaked out and tried to go back, but my body SCREAMED at me not to eat so few calories... So, in the end, I gained it all back-PLUS some... It's an age-old story and I've heard it from many people.
Well, this was the 3rd or 4th time I had lost a significant amount only to gain it back and my husband expressed that he was worried about me. I got mad about that-because I so desperately wanted to try again! I was getting so tired of being this weight! For almost 10 years now, I've been carrying an extra 50-60 lbs over my already 15 lbs to heavy weight. I don't feel like "Myself". I feel like I am a prisoner in this large body and it keeps me from living life to the fullest!
I don't want to lose and gain and lose and gain anymore, but I also don't want to get stuck losing weight only to end up still stuck at 40 lbs overweight! I am hoping hcg will get me over the hump!
This is my hope. I would love it if some people would find my blog and choose to follow my journey. Perhaps it will inspire you to try it also!
God bless you in your efforts and if you pray, please pray for mine!
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