nervous...

I'm getting ready to start hcg in about 2 weeks! I'm super excited, but also very, very nervous...  I have done so many diets in the past--I hope this will be my LAST!  I've done a lot of research about hcg and I feel that it has the most likelihood of being my last "diet"--although hcg is considered a "protocol" not a "diet".  The medical definition for the word protocol is: "the plan for carrying out a scientific study or a patient's treatment regimen."  The hcg protocol was developed by an doctor in Italy named Dr. A.T.W.Simeons.  He wrote a paper called "Pounds and Inches" which you can find online if you google it.

What drew me to the hcg protocol was the claim that it will reset my metabolism-or my hypothalamus gland.  After rounds of steroids and other medications for MS, I have gotten to the point where I think my metabolism got "re-set" at a higher point.  Losing weight since being on steroids has been SO HARD, but even worse was KEEPING it off!  After losing 22 lbs on one diet program (considered one of the "healthiest") I hit a "plateau".  After a few weeks, I started getting all kinds of advice about what I should do to get unstuck.  The problem was, I was DOING all those things! (At least the smart ones.:)  After a little over a year and a half of trying to lose more weight, I finally decided to try their maintenance program.  Within one week I had gained more than 10 lbs back!  Almost half of what I'd lost!  I freaked out and tried to go back, but my body SCREAMED at me not to eat so few calories... So, in the end, I gained it all back-PLUS some...  It's an age-old story and I've heard it from many people.

Well, this was the 3rd or 4th time I had lost a significant amount only to gain it back and my husband expressed that he was worried about me.  I got mad about that-because I so desperately wanted to try again!  I was getting so tired of being this weight!  For almost 10 years now, I've been carrying an extra 50-60 lbs over my already 15 lbs to heavy weight.  I don't feel like "Myself".  I feel like I am a prisoner in this large body and it keeps me from living life to the fullest!  

I don't want to lose and gain and lose and gain anymore, but I also don't want to get stuck losing weight only to end up still stuck at 40 lbs overweight!  I am hoping hcg will get me over the hump!

This is my hope.  I would love it if some people would find my blog and choose to follow my journey.  Perhaps it will inspire you to try it also!

God bless you in your efforts and if you pray, please pray for mine!