So, again it's been too long since an update...but two days ago (Day #31) I took my last hCG and now I'm on my third and last day of the VLCD. Tomorrow I begin Phase 3 (p3)!! Here is where the "rubber meets the road" so to speak, because this is where we "find out" if the hCG worked as "promised". If I follow the protocol, I should not gain this weight back. If I follow the protocol through p3, I may fluctuate a little during it, but I can have a "steak day" whenever necessary and that will knock me back down (or up, apparently) to my LDW (Last dose weight) which is 188. I need to stay within 2 lbs, plus or minus, of 188 throughout p3 to make sure I've stabilized and I need to finish that up with at least 3 full weeks of "normal" eating and keeping the same weight (steak days are appropriate there, as well, apparently) before I can start my next round--planned for January.
Anyone want to join me in January?:)
Thursday, November 11, 2010
Sunday, November 7, 2010
VLCD #29
Yesterday, I released 1.2 lbs for a total of 23.6 gone forever! Today, I didn't release any lbs...
Not sure why--if it was something I did or not. I ate low calories and possibly, didn't have enough water. We went to a Flea Market yesterday and I was really good with my food choices. Unfortunately, I walked a LOT and while I felt perfectly fine (and not even out of breath), I think I might have gotten too much exercise. That's the only thing I can really think of because I really think I drank enough water...
Tomorrow will tell. I didn't walk too much today.:)
Today, I wore a "pencil skirt"! It is gray wool and I really thought it looked nice.:) My girls dressed me up for church, so I looked as good as I could have! I also wore a thin, off-white cardigan buttoned up (which I couldn't have done previously as it would not have stayed closed against my body. I did wear a sleeveless top underneath it just in case.:)
Also, my rings are fitting so much better now! My favorite thumb ring, however, only fits now on my index finger.:( That makes me sad...it's really perfect as a thumb ring. It's only "OK" as a finger ring...
I have a charley horse, today, too. In my left calf. I don't know if it's from my heels, or from the walking yesterday. Either way, I think I'll take a nice, warm soak tonight...
Well, life is sort of boring, lately. The only thing I'm doing is trying to stay focused so I don't "fall off the wagon". I took communion today, which was kind of like falling off... However, I think it was worth it.:)
I'm praying that I can lose at least 2 more lbs before the morning of the 12th, which will be my LDW (Last dosage weight). That way, since my current weight (as of yesterday and today morning) is 190, I will stabilize at 190 or lower. I really just want to get out of the 190s and stay out...I don't mind weighing this much through the holidays if I can keep it stabilized. I know that January is coming and I intend to stay on the VLCD at that time, until I've lost the maximum 34 lbs. That is my HOPE (I feel with hCG you can't set "goals" because it just does it's "thing") and my plan (as far at that goes...)
I'm looking forward to my husband and some of my daughters doing it with me in January! That will make it so much easier--I won't have to cook separately. I guess Bella will be on her own...but she is gone enough--she can eat at school and work. I am only willing that my girls and husband do 23 days, though. NONE of them need to lose more than 20 lbs, seriously. I'm going to have to figure out how many ius of hCG to buy for all of us. The girls want it for Christmas presents! I'm afraid that might sound worse than it is. I would hate for it to get around that I bought DIET stuff for my GIRLS for CHRISTMAS!:(
Not sure why--if it was something I did or not. I ate low calories and possibly, didn't have enough water. We went to a Flea Market yesterday and I was really good with my food choices. Unfortunately, I walked a LOT and while I felt perfectly fine (and not even out of breath), I think I might have gotten too much exercise. That's the only thing I can really think of because I really think I drank enough water...
Tomorrow will tell. I didn't walk too much today.:)
Today, I wore a "pencil skirt"! It is gray wool and I really thought it looked nice.:) My girls dressed me up for church, so I looked as good as I could have! I also wore a thin, off-white cardigan buttoned up (which I couldn't have done previously as it would not have stayed closed against my body. I did wear a sleeveless top underneath it just in case.:)
Also, my rings are fitting so much better now! My favorite thumb ring, however, only fits now on my index finger.:( That makes me sad...it's really perfect as a thumb ring. It's only "OK" as a finger ring...
I have a charley horse, today, too. In my left calf. I don't know if it's from my heels, or from the walking yesterday. Either way, I think I'll take a nice, warm soak tonight...
Well, life is sort of boring, lately. The only thing I'm doing is trying to stay focused so I don't "fall off the wagon". I took communion today, which was kind of like falling off... However, I think it was worth it.:)
I'm praying that I can lose at least 2 more lbs before the morning of the 12th, which will be my LDW (Last dosage weight). That way, since my current weight (as of yesterday and today morning) is 190, I will stabilize at 190 or lower. I really just want to get out of the 190s and stay out...I don't mind weighing this much through the holidays if I can keep it stabilized. I know that January is coming and I intend to stay on the VLCD at that time, until I've lost the maximum 34 lbs. That is my HOPE (I feel with hCG you can't set "goals" because it just does it's "thing") and my plan (as far at that goes...)
I'm looking forward to my husband and some of my daughters doing it with me in January! That will make it so much easier--I won't have to cook separately. I guess Bella will be on her own...but she is gone enough--she can eat at school and work. I am only willing that my girls and husband do 23 days, though. NONE of them need to lose more than 20 lbs, seriously. I'm going to have to figure out how many ius of hCG to buy for all of us. The girls want it for Christmas presents! I'm afraid that might sound worse than it is. I would hate for it to get around that I bought DIET stuff for my GIRLS for CHRISTMAS!:(
Friday, November 5, 2010
VLCD #27
(Today, meaning November 5) Yesterday, I released 0.2 lbs. Today, I woke to a release of 1.2 lbs. My new total released is 22.4 lbs.
I started out with no energy today and wanted to stay in bed. I was still in bed around 10:30 when my husband went down to get my hcg for me! THAT'S how lazy I felt! I forced myself to eat some "breakfast" (beef over lettuce) and then we went to S-bux. Matt was pretty sick--sneezing a lot and a runny nose and a headache--so we just sat there and talked very calmly and nicely.:) Then, we started errands (the post office, Walmart, Good Will, Woodman's, Trader Joe's...) and by then it was night and I made dinner (filet mignon--his with bacon--and asparagus for me and salad and corn for him) and we enjoyed that time.
Sometime in Good Will, though, I got my "second wind" and had a great time! I felt like I was wearing Matt out, but he said he enjoyed himself...:) It was fun making dinner tonight--even after all that shopping! I don't remember having the energy to make dinner after shopping in YEARS--truly! After dinner, I made my video. I had fun this time, too! I'm usually kind of dreading it...
Anyway, then I took a detox bath and now I'm ready for bed. I'm a little wired, but I think I'll calm down in a couple minutes...Usually, the detox bath calms me down, but my heart sometimes races.
At Good Will I bought: 1 book; 1 black dress; 1 tan tailored jacket and 3 pairs of jeans.:) I had fun, tonight, trying it all on...Especially the black dress! It's just basic, but I could see my figure coming back.:)
Well, I'd better get to sleep!
I started out with no energy today and wanted to stay in bed. I was still in bed around 10:30 when my husband went down to get my hcg for me! THAT'S how lazy I felt! I forced myself to eat some "breakfast" (beef over lettuce) and then we went to S-bux. Matt was pretty sick--sneezing a lot and a runny nose and a headache--so we just sat there and talked very calmly and nicely.:) Then, we started errands (the post office, Walmart, Good Will, Woodman's, Trader Joe's...) and by then it was night and I made dinner (filet mignon--his with bacon--and asparagus for me and salad and corn for him) and we enjoyed that time.
Sometime in Good Will, though, I got my "second wind" and had a great time! I felt like I was wearing Matt out, but he said he enjoyed himself...:) It was fun making dinner tonight--even after all that shopping! I don't remember having the energy to make dinner after shopping in YEARS--truly! After dinner, I made my video. I had fun this time, too! I'm usually kind of dreading it...
Anyway, then I took a detox bath and now I'm ready for bed. I'm a little wired, but I think I'll calm down in a couple minutes...Usually, the detox bath calms me down, but my heart sometimes races.
At Good Will I bought: 1 book; 1 black dress; 1 tan tailored jacket and 3 pairs of jeans.:) I had fun, tonight, trying it all on...Especially the black dress! It's just basic, but I could see my figure coming back.:)
Well, I'd better get to sleep!
Wednesday, November 3, 2010
VLCD #25
I can't believe it's been 25 days! It's incredible. As of today, I'm down 21 lbs! This morning I woke to a release of 1.6 lbs! I didn't sleep well, but I did sleep LONG. I didn't wake up until almost noon! I've learned some valuable lessons today, too...
One: never wake up and put off taking hcg and vitamins and eating! I ended up not doing my hcg until I was driving away; I didn't take my morning vitamins at all; and I didn't eat my protein until I got home--around 6:PM!! Not smart.
While out, we bought some apples (too sweet-yuck!) and some campari tomatoes. I ate 3 tomatoes and I had taken along some pizza-flavored breadsticks, so I ate one of those. Other than that, I just had THREE cups of coffee!! We sat at Starbucks and I really should have gone home, but I wasn't hungry...That'll teach me to wait for hunger!lol (Yes, I know in general, you should eat only when hungry. Its just that w/hcg it's not so simple...:)
What was that about the apple being too sweet, too? I don't think that's ever happened to me! But it really tasted kind of gross. I ate half and gave the rest to Matt. He did not find it too sweet. Maybe my tastebuds are finally getting trained! I mean, even the mineral water w/lemon is starting to taste sweet. The mineral water and lemon taste literally as sweet at the passion tazo tea did. Hmmm, what does this mean? Because I KNOW the mineral water and lemon have no added sugar!
I'm going to make my video now. I look terrible because fatigue just took me over! I wish I could have done it half an hour ago...I was full of pep, then!:)
One: never wake up and put off taking hcg and vitamins and eating! I ended up not doing my hcg until I was driving away; I didn't take my morning vitamins at all; and I didn't eat my protein until I got home--around 6:PM!! Not smart.
While out, we bought some apples (too sweet-yuck!) and some campari tomatoes. I ate 3 tomatoes and I had taken along some pizza-flavored breadsticks, so I ate one of those. Other than that, I just had THREE cups of coffee!! We sat at Starbucks and I really should have gone home, but I wasn't hungry...That'll teach me to wait for hunger!lol (Yes, I know in general, you should eat only when hungry. Its just that w/hcg it's not so simple...:)
What was that about the apple being too sweet, too? I don't think that's ever happened to me! But it really tasted kind of gross. I ate half and gave the rest to Matt. He did not find it too sweet. Maybe my tastebuds are finally getting trained! I mean, even the mineral water w/lemon is starting to taste sweet. The mineral water and lemon taste literally as sweet at the passion tazo tea did. Hmmm, what does this mean? Because I KNOW the mineral water and lemon have no added sugar!
I'm going to make my video now. I look terrible because fatigue just took me over! I wish I could have done it half an hour ago...I was full of pep, then!:)
Tuesday, November 2, 2010
VLCD #24
Finally, another release: 0.8 lbs gone! Phew!:)
Total gone: 19.4
I'm very tired--it's too late to be online, but I wanted to report.
More tomorrow...:)
Total gone: 19.4
I'm very tired--it's too late to be online, but I wanted to report.
More tomorrow...:)
Monday, November 1, 2010
VLCD #23
I can't believe I haven't written in 10 days! Well, this is SUCH an up and down thing! Some days I'm hungry and have little energy and some days I'm not hungry and have a lot of energy. Then, oddly enough, some days I'm hungry and have a lot of energy and vice versa! It's not necessarily logical... Also, during the times when I'm not losing pounds, that's when people start noticing! It's an amazing phenomenon!
Today, my stats are that I've released 18.6 lbs, total. I did not release anything since yesterday--my weight stayed the same. I'm not sure if it's something I've done or just normal. I upped my dosage of hcg last week (from 125iu to 133iu per dose) and I have had better energy. I'm still hungry on a rotating basis, but the energy levels are better--go figure. Also, I'm having (sometimes) extreme cravings for sugar and things that I can't have. It's pretty intense and I didn't expect it! Yesterday, I grilled some vidalia onions and half an apple (all I had calories for was half) and that helped a little. It was a taste I felt I needed, although I probably could have powered through it or just gone to bed.
I found Campari tomatoes and they are wonderful! They taste like tomatoes are supposed to and that is a relief since my taste buds are so sensitive. It's so hard to eat only these few foods--not so much because of hunger--but boredom. I should have purchased the cookbook, but I didn't. So many recipes for hcg include things not on protocol that it worries me to be led down the wrong path without realizing it. Also, for so long I've had to split my meals into mini-meals--meaning eating each thing separately throughout the day--that it didn't make sense to try to make something out of everything I can have. Now that I'm just eating the two meals easily, it makes more sense.
Also, today I had an unsweetened Tazo Passion tea at Starbucks. I'm not sure, yet, how this will affect me, but I am tired of plain coffee each time we go. My husband likes to go regularly and I hate to do without that time together... Anyway, on the box I have at home, Passion tea has fruit juice for color--who knows how much or what kind! It tastes sweet to me while on hcg--normally, it's not sweet. I'm assuming I can taste the minute amount of fruit juice because I'm not eating sugar. Although, I do have apples, oranges and strawberries. (I can have grapefruit, but so far they don't appeal to me.)
My energy level, today, has lasted all day. I've been up (with a migraine) since 8:AM, but after taking migraine medication, I've been going strong! I'm actually pretty happy about getting some projects out of the way. I'm making some kitchen curtains (the fabric has been sitting here for a year...) and also working on some valances for my sun room. I'm finally making the pumpkin seeds from the Halloween pumpkin my daughter carved--even though I can't eat any! They sound pretty good to me, right now, too.:)
Well, I need to get my YouTube video made and get to bed. I went to bed earlier last night (I think I was asleep before 11:PM!) and I don't want to ruin my run.:) I fell behind in my food journal the past couple days, too, but thankfully, I was able to catch up today. I'm thankful for Mondays!!
Hopefully, I'll be back tomorrow. I don't know what got into me for the past 10 days! But as of tomorrow AM, I have only 16 more days of the VLCD. Then, on to phase 3--which I have to admit, scares me a bit...
Today, my stats are that I've released 18.6 lbs, total. I did not release anything since yesterday--my weight stayed the same. I'm not sure if it's something I've done or just normal. I upped my dosage of hcg last week (from 125iu to 133iu per dose) and I have had better energy. I'm still hungry on a rotating basis, but the energy levels are better--go figure. Also, I'm having (sometimes) extreme cravings for sugar and things that I can't have. It's pretty intense and I didn't expect it! Yesterday, I grilled some vidalia onions and half an apple (all I had calories for was half) and that helped a little. It was a taste I felt I needed, although I probably could have powered through it or just gone to bed.
I found Campari tomatoes and they are wonderful! They taste like tomatoes are supposed to and that is a relief since my taste buds are so sensitive. It's so hard to eat only these few foods--not so much because of hunger--but boredom. I should have purchased the cookbook, but I didn't. So many recipes for hcg include things not on protocol that it worries me to be led down the wrong path without realizing it. Also, for so long I've had to split my meals into mini-meals--meaning eating each thing separately throughout the day--that it didn't make sense to try to make something out of everything I can have. Now that I'm just eating the two meals easily, it makes more sense.
Also, today I had an unsweetened Tazo Passion tea at Starbucks. I'm not sure, yet, how this will affect me, but I am tired of plain coffee each time we go. My husband likes to go regularly and I hate to do without that time together... Anyway, on the box I have at home, Passion tea has fruit juice for color--who knows how much or what kind! It tastes sweet to me while on hcg--normally, it's not sweet. I'm assuming I can taste the minute amount of fruit juice because I'm not eating sugar. Although, I do have apples, oranges and strawberries. (I can have grapefruit, but so far they don't appeal to me.)
My energy level, today, has lasted all day. I've been up (with a migraine) since 8:AM, but after taking migraine medication, I've been going strong! I'm actually pretty happy about getting some projects out of the way. I'm making some kitchen curtains (the fabric has been sitting here for a year...) and also working on some valances for my sun room. I'm finally making the pumpkin seeds from the Halloween pumpkin my daughter carved--even though I can't eat any! They sound pretty good to me, right now, too.:)
Well, I need to get my YouTube video made and get to bed. I went to bed earlier last night (I think I was asleep before 11:PM!) and I don't want to ruin my run.:) I fell behind in my food journal the past couple days, too, but thankfully, I was able to catch up today. I'm thankful for Mondays!!
Hopefully, I'll be back tomorrow. I don't know what got into me for the past 10 days! But as of tomorrow AM, I have only 16 more days of the VLCD. Then, on to phase 3--which I have to admit, scares me a bit...
Friday, October 22, 2010
VLCD #13
released 1.4 lbs.
total lost: 15.2 lbs.
YAY! Well, somehow everything worked out and I still made progress!:)
However, today was a different day. I don't believe I went over calories, but I know I was off-protocol! First, I ate non-fat cottage cheese because I was leaving in a hurry and it was something I could take with me. I didn't like it much, either. I think I am not used to the taste of dairy and it had a sweetness that I didn't care for. Second, we ate OUT tonight and although I ordered the filet mignon and cut a small portion of it, I'm not totally sure if it had nothing on it--you know? Ditto with the asparagus. However, I didn't eat anything else and I only drank tea and coffee--black.
I'm prepared that it could have set me back. I may not have lost AND it may be 3 days again before I'm back on track. But I will say that for me, it was worth it. I had a wonderful time visiting two of my grown kids (who are servers at that restaurant) and their "significant others" (who also work there:). All in all, it was a great time and I'm not sorry I did it. But it IS a lesson for me. I may just have to swear off restaurants until the end of November...
I will update tomorrow afternoon. I'm going to a craft fair in the morning and then I will be free in the afternoon. After that, I need to prepare my Sunday School lesson. See ya then!
total lost: 15.2 lbs.
YAY! Well, somehow everything worked out and I still made progress!:)
However, today was a different day. I don't believe I went over calories, but I know I was off-protocol! First, I ate non-fat cottage cheese because I was leaving in a hurry and it was something I could take with me. I didn't like it much, either. I think I am not used to the taste of dairy and it had a sweetness that I didn't care for. Second, we ate OUT tonight and although I ordered the filet mignon and cut a small portion of it, I'm not totally sure if it had nothing on it--you know? Ditto with the asparagus. However, I didn't eat anything else and I only drank tea and coffee--black.
I'm prepared that it could have set me back. I may not have lost AND it may be 3 days again before I'm back on track. But I will say that for me, it was worth it. I had a wonderful time visiting two of my grown kids (who are servers at that restaurant) and their "significant others" (who also work there:). All in all, it was a great time and I'm not sorry I did it. But it IS a lesson for me. I may just have to swear off restaurants until the end of November...
I will update tomorrow afternoon. I'm going to a craft fair in the morning and then I will be free in the afternoon. After that, I need to prepare my Sunday School lesson. See ya then!
Thursday, October 21, 2010
VLCD #12
1 lb. released today
13.8 lbs. total
ONEderland! Yes, I'm finally back in Onederland...OK, it's corny, but it's true.:)
So, I'm very happy for that milestone. Meanwhile, I had to go shopping today because I was almost out of food. I found some grass fed beef--very lean--that I'm excited about. The beef seems to "go down" the easiest for me...
Still haven't tried the cottage cheese yet. I'm kind of saving it for an "emergency". I eat scrambled eggs periodically. I routinely scramble my eggs with water anyway (my father taught me that they make fluffier eggs) and it's not difficult to do them in water. They really satisfy when I can't stand the idea of more meat. That seems to happen often...:(
Tonight is small group and it's our turn to bring snacks. I'm bringing cheese and crackers (which is a trigger for me) and a cranberry nut torte (which is not a trigger for me). It was hard to decide what to take! Anyway, I'm pretty tired, too, so I hope I don't get "weak" while there. I"m taking some tomatoes and my breadstick. I may take an orange, too. I'm eating scallops before I go. (Yes, scallops are not on the protocol specifically, but others have recommended them, so at this point-knowing what does and doesn't work for me AND since crab and shrimp are on the protocol and they're so similar to scallops, I'm gonna try it.) We'll see how it goes.
I probably won't do a vlog tonight, because I really am very tired.
13.8 lbs. total
ONEderland! Yes, I'm finally back in Onederland...OK, it's corny, but it's true.:)
So, I'm very happy for that milestone. Meanwhile, I had to go shopping today because I was almost out of food. I found some grass fed beef--very lean--that I'm excited about. The beef seems to "go down" the easiest for me...
Still haven't tried the cottage cheese yet. I'm kind of saving it for an "emergency". I eat scrambled eggs periodically. I routinely scramble my eggs with water anyway (my father taught me that they make fluffier eggs) and it's not difficult to do them in water. They really satisfy when I can't stand the idea of more meat. That seems to happen often...:(
Tonight is small group and it's our turn to bring snacks. I'm bringing cheese and crackers (which is a trigger for me) and a cranberry nut torte (which is not a trigger for me). It was hard to decide what to take! Anyway, I'm pretty tired, too, so I hope I don't get "weak" while there. I"m taking some tomatoes and my breadstick. I may take an orange, too. I'm eating scallops before I go. (Yes, scallops are not on the protocol specifically, but others have recommended them, so at this point-knowing what does and doesn't work for me AND since crab and shrimp are on the protocol and they're so similar to scallops, I'm gonna try it.) We'll see how it goes.
I probably won't do a vlog tonight, because I really am very tired.
Wednesday, October 20, 2010
VLCD #11
.8 lbs released.
12.8 lbs gone forever.
So, today was WEIRD. I woke up like any other day, but after about an hour, I was exhausted! I was afraid to fall asleep--I was so tired I thought I'd sleep all day-but I finally gave in around 10:30 and told my husband to make sure I was up by 12:30 since we had to go somewhere at 1. Well, before noon I was up and full of energy! I don't know what that was, except maybe I'm just not getting enough "healing sleep". I need to get more sleep between 10 and 2 and I am rarely asleep before midnight. Lately, I've been really trying and still getting to sleep near midnight.:(
Anyway, when I was so tired I was not hungry at all. I didn't want anything except I made myself drink water. After I woke up I was very hungry! I made fish, because it was all I had that was pre-cooked and I probably could have eaten a nice steak.:) But I then prepared celery, strawberries and my breadstick to go and a cup of liver detox tea and 2 water bottles. After about 20 minutes of driving, I was SO hungry again! I ate all my stuff before we got to our appt. and I was fine till we got home (about 4:PM) and then I made chicken and by the time it was done, I was very, very hungry! I ate the chicken (wrapped in lettuce leaves) as though I was ravenous! But then, the hunger went away and I was fine all the rest of the day.
We went to a movie and I didn't even think about popcorn! It was crazy! I bought a water and drank that and enjoyed the movie.:) Normally, popcorn would be a big trigger food for me.
Tonight I took a detox bath and I ate my orange. I put the peels in the bath for scent and ate the orange and read a book and really felt pampered... Now, I'm exhausted, but I didn't want to go to bed without writing...so good-night.:)
12.8 lbs gone forever.
So, today was WEIRD. I woke up like any other day, but after about an hour, I was exhausted! I was afraid to fall asleep--I was so tired I thought I'd sleep all day-but I finally gave in around 10:30 and told my husband to make sure I was up by 12:30 since we had to go somewhere at 1. Well, before noon I was up and full of energy! I don't know what that was, except maybe I'm just not getting enough "healing sleep". I need to get more sleep between 10 and 2 and I am rarely asleep before midnight. Lately, I've been really trying and still getting to sleep near midnight.:(
Anyway, when I was so tired I was not hungry at all. I didn't want anything except I made myself drink water. After I woke up I was very hungry! I made fish, because it was all I had that was pre-cooked and I probably could have eaten a nice steak.:) But I then prepared celery, strawberries and my breadstick to go and a cup of liver detox tea and 2 water bottles. After about 20 minutes of driving, I was SO hungry again! I ate all my stuff before we got to our appt. and I was fine till we got home (about 4:PM) and then I made chicken and by the time it was done, I was very, very hungry! I ate the chicken (wrapped in lettuce leaves) as though I was ravenous! But then, the hunger went away and I was fine all the rest of the day.
We went to a movie and I didn't even think about popcorn! It was crazy! I bought a water and drank that and enjoyed the movie.:) Normally, popcorn would be a big trigger food for me.
Tonight I took a detox bath and I ate my orange. I put the peels in the bath for scent and ate the orange and read a book and really felt pampered... Now, I'm exhausted, but I didn't want to go to bed without writing...so good-night.:)
Tuesday, October 19, 2010
VLCD #10
Release .8 lbs
Total 12 lbs
So, today was a good day. I started out with a lot of energy! I went to my bible/book study and I was clear-minded and in a great mood. I came home, got some stuff done and then realized I was "fading"... It started with a mild headache, but slowly turned into exhaustion! So, I made my YouTube video and wrote in my food journal, cooked my dinner (I had the "egg protocol":) and checked my emails--which was a mistake! I found some fun things on freecycle that I really wanted, so I went out to pick a couple things up. Now, I'm VERY, VERY tired!LOL
But it's a good thing I waited up! If I had fallen asleep I might not have woken up and I would have forgotten my nightly dose of hCG!! That would have really sucked... So, I take it at 9:AM and 9:PM and I'm taking it now and then I'll go to bed. I've really been needing better sleep...To think I could be doing even better if I was getting better sleep! I thought about sleeping in tomorrow, but I'm supposed to pick something up tomorrow at 9:AM. I made a few other commitments too, that will keep me going tomorrow.
I took two Pau d'Arco capsules tonight. They are a "cleanse" and I was taking them every night, but I realized I've been forgetting them. I hope that helps me tomorrow, too. I had my Yerba Mate "tea" and I always feel better when I take that. I drank it during bible study. I'm wondering if my decaf coffee at Starbucks might not be the cause of my fatigue? OR, it COULD be that when I was this weight before (however long ago THAT was!) I may have been eating a lot of garbage and it stored in my fat cells and now I'm detoxing from it.
My "onion soup" was pouring water into the pan after I fried my steak in water and making a dark "broth". Then, I cooked an entire medium onion in it (sliced thin) and added some Braggs Aminos and salt and pepper and some apple cider vinegar and it was GOOD.:) It really was satisfying to eat on a cold day. I was at first surprised that Dr. Simeons called onions a vegetable to have apart from other vegetables, but I'm beginning to find ways to enjoy it on it's own. The same with celery. I have yet to try it, but I've heard that boiled red radishes--mashed--is a tasty "approved" veggie, so I want to try that soon. They are low in calorie, too, so you can have more. Onions are low, too...
Well, now I'm off to bed! Thanks for taking the time to read my blog and make sure you follow me so I can follow you back!
Total 12 lbs
So, today was a good day. I started out with a lot of energy! I went to my bible/book study and I was clear-minded and in a great mood. I came home, got some stuff done and then realized I was "fading"... It started with a mild headache, but slowly turned into exhaustion! So, I made my YouTube video and wrote in my food journal, cooked my dinner (I had the "egg protocol":) and checked my emails--which was a mistake! I found some fun things on freecycle that I really wanted, so I went out to pick a couple things up. Now, I'm VERY, VERY tired!LOL
But it's a good thing I waited up! If I had fallen asleep I might not have woken up and I would have forgotten my nightly dose of hCG!! That would have really sucked... So, I take it at 9:AM and 9:PM and I'm taking it now and then I'll go to bed. I've really been needing better sleep...To think I could be doing even better if I was getting better sleep! I thought about sleeping in tomorrow, but I'm supposed to pick something up tomorrow at 9:AM. I made a few other commitments too, that will keep me going tomorrow.
I took two Pau d'Arco capsules tonight. They are a "cleanse" and I was taking them every night, but I realized I've been forgetting them. I hope that helps me tomorrow, too. I had my Yerba Mate "tea" and I always feel better when I take that. I drank it during bible study. I'm wondering if my decaf coffee at Starbucks might not be the cause of my fatigue? OR, it COULD be that when I was this weight before (however long ago THAT was!) I may have been eating a lot of garbage and it stored in my fat cells and now I'm detoxing from it.
My "onion soup" was pouring water into the pan after I fried my steak in water and making a dark "broth". Then, I cooked an entire medium onion in it (sliced thin) and added some Braggs Aminos and salt and pepper and some apple cider vinegar and it was GOOD.:) It really was satisfying to eat on a cold day. I was at first surprised that Dr. Simeons called onions a vegetable to have apart from other vegetables, but I'm beginning to find ways to enjoy it on it's own. The same with celery. I have yet to try it, but I've heard that boiled red radishes--mashed--is a tasty "approved" veggie, so I want to try that soon. They are low in calorie, too, so you can have more. Onions are low, too...
Well, now I'm off to bed! Thanks for taking the time to read my blog and make sure you follow me so I can follow you back!
Monday, October 18, 2010
VLCD #9
Brief post to say I lost another 1.4 lbs!! So, my new total is 11.2! Praise God, I'm so happy and relieved.:)
If I get a chance to post more tomorrow, I'll tell you about my "onion soup" and some other things that are going on...
Meanwhile, thanks for "tuning in".:)
If I get a chance to post more tomorrow, I'll tell you about my "onion soup" and some other things that are going on...
Meanwhile, thanks for "tuning in".:)
Sunday, October 17, 2010
VLCD #8
Apparently, I am VERY bad at this!! I thought I would be eager to get to this blog to write about my experiences, but I'm feeling so energetic, I'm out and about all day! I AM making my vlogs more faithfully--but it's an experience that is new for me so I'm making it more of a priority until I learn it. I've had blogs before...not very interesting ones, either.
So, yesterday I inadvertently ate too many calories!! Yikes!! I ate 543 calories and didn't realize because I didn't count them until I got home that evening. I thought I was being SO good, too!:( Well, I DID have a loss this morning, but it was only .4 lbs...but a loss is a loss (or a release) so I'm thrilled!:) My total as of today is 9.8 lbs. lost! Here are the daily losses:
Day #2--2.8 lbs
Day #3--2.2 lbs
Day #4--1.2 lbs
Day #5--1.2 lbs
Day #6--1.4 lbs
Day #7--0.6 lbs
Day #8--0.4 lbs
Total--9.8 lbs!
I'm really looking forward to hitting the 10 lb. loss mark! I had some plans to celebrate, but my hubby and I went to Good Will and I found a TON of books to read and I'm going to let that stand as my reward until I hit 20 lbs. I don't feel that setting goals is very productive as though I can actually control this. I feel it's a gift from God and the hcg just does the work!:) So, the reward is for persevering through the (almost) 6 weeks.:)
This brings me to another subject. I'm a little disappointed to realize that I will have to quit earlier than 43 days. I have a trip that I had forgotten about when I was nervously avoiding starting the protocol. If I had started when I had intended to, I'd be fine, but since I started a week late...I'm running into this trip. I've thought long and hard about it and canceling is not an option for me. I could do a planned interruption, but then I'd need to be back on protocol for another few weeks to get me back on track and that puts me farther into the Christmas season than I'd like. Either way, I'll be eating p3 foods and that's gonna even be a problem... I was thinking that doing a planned interruption MIGHT be better just because if I didn't eat perfectly p3 at least it would not mess with my stabilization? It's just a thought. I have to think and pray about this for awhile. Where I'm going it will be difficult to eat p3--I'll be eating other people's cooking and it would make so much extra work for them! I hate to ask them to make it and making it myself (there) will only make me in the way.
Anybody listening? Anybody have any ideas? I'd appreciate any insight.:)
So, yesterday I inadvertently ate too many calories!! Yikes!! I ate 543 calories and didn't realize because I didn't count them until I got home that evening. I thought I was being SO good, too!:( Well, I DID have a loss this morning, but it was only .4 lbs...but a loss is a loss (or a release) so I'm thrilled!:) My total as of today is 9.8 lbs. lost! Here are the daily losses:
Day #2--2.8 lbs
Day #3--2.2 lbs
Day #4--1.2 lbs
Day #5--1.2 lbs
Day #6--1.4 lbs
Day #7--0.6 lbs
Day #8--0.4 lbs
Total--9.8 lbs!
I'm really looking forward to hitting the 10 lb. loss mark! I had some plans to celebrate, but my hubby and I went to Good Will and I found a TON of books to read and I'm going to let that stand as my reward until I hit 20 lbs. I don't feel that setting goals is very productive as though I can actually control this. I feel it's a gift from God and the hcg just does the work!:) So, the reward is for persevering through the (almost) 6 weeks.:)
This brings me to another subject. I'm a little disappointed to realize that I will have to quit earlier than 43 days. I have a trip that I had forgotten about when I was nervously avoiding starting the protocol. If I had started when I had intended to, I'd be fine, but since I started a week late...I'm running into this trip. I've thought long and hard about it and canceling is not an option for me. I could do a planned interruption, but then I'd need to be back on protocol for another few weeks to get me back on track and that puts me farther into the Christmas season than I'd like. Either way, I'll be eating p3 foods and that's gonna even be a problem... I was thinking that doing a planned interruption MIGHT be better just because if I didn't eat perfectly p3 at least it would not mess with my stabilization? It's just a thought. I have to think and pray about this for awhile. Where I'm going it will be difficult to eat p3--I'll be eating other people's cooking and it would make so much extra work for them! I hate to ask them to make it and making it myself (there) will only make me in the way.
Anybody listening? Anybody have any ideas? I'd appreciate any insight.:)
Friday, October 15, 2010
VLCD #5
AGAIN, I didn't write yesterday! Well, the good (amazing actually) news from yesterday was that I lost/released another 1.2 lbs! This morning (which was even more amazing) I lost/released 1.4 lbs! My total release of pounds since I started the protocol is now 8.8 lbs! Praise God! I'm pretty stunned.
One reason I'm stunned about today is because I was told people often don't lose during "TOM". So, since "he" came last night, I was pretty sure I would not have had any movement (in a downward motion--I even expected it could up UP!) on the scale this morning. I'm thanking God and laughing for joy!:)
As far as hunger, that is getting MUCH better, too. The things I've added are: I take 99mg of Potassium 3xs per day; I take magnesium throughout the day; I take L-Glutamine throughout the day (1/8 tsp. under tongue-of powder-3-6xs per day); I'm taking Pau d'Arco (in pill form) before bed and sometimes, with food); and I've planned out my meals so they're more spread out. In reading over Pounds and Inches, I think some of my symptoms are blood-sugar related. (ie. dizziness, etc)
I'm actually feeling REALLY good about my energy levels and my brain is clearing and I'm feeling inspired to do things! I REMEMBER this feeling!LOL I'm also TASTING my food again! Organic food is so YUMMY! I can taste "memories" of what food used to taste like when I was little. Yesterday I had an organic orange that was so luscious and I just enjoyed tasting it (slowly...) so much! I also had a cucumber--the same thing! Who'd a thunk I'd get so much enjoyment out of a cucumber?! Well, my only sadness is that I wish I could buy good tomatoes at the store...The ones I bought are yucky and now that I can really taste again...!
I was also encouraged by a health assessment I had yesterday at my chiropractor. The Assessor (My new friend, Drew-he was GREAT!) knew about hcg so I didn't have to explain it to him. He gave me some "exercises" to do for balance and coordination (I have MS) and explained how I can't do them in reps because of the VLCD, but I could do them until I "feel" it, then stop. I'm hoping to have improved incredibly just by doing that by the time I see him again in December! The other thing he told me that I really appreciated is about a new Whole Foods down the road from the chiropractor! Now, I don't have to drive 40 minutes away for Whole Foods and nothing else, I can tie that chore in with my appt.:)
I hope I can get better with updates. Of course, it's kind of hard since no one is reading anyway...Tell me if you're there!:) I will subscribe to you, too!:)
One reason I'm stunned about today is because I was told people often don't lose during "TOM". So, since "he" came last night, I was pretty sure I would not have had any movement (in a downward motion--I even expected it could up UP!) on the scale this morning. I'm thanking God and laughing for joy!:)
As far as hunger, that is getting MUCH better, too. The things I've added are: I take 99mg of Potassium 3xs per day; I take magnesium throughout the day; I take L-Glutamine throughout the day (1/8 tsp. under tongue-of powder-3-6xs per day); I'm taking Pau d'Arco (in pill form) before bed and sometimes, with food); and I've planned out my meals so they're more spread out. In reading over Pounds and Inches, I think some of my symptoms are blood-sugar related. (ie. dizziness, etc)
I'm actually feeling REALLY good about my energy levels and my brain is clearing and I'm feeling inspired to do things! I REMEMBER this feeling!LOL I'm also TASTING my food again! Organic food is so YUMMY! I can taste "memories" of what food used to taste like when I was little. Yesterday I had an organic orange that was so luscious and I just enjoyed tasting it (slowly...) so much! I also had a cucumber--the same thing! Who'd a thunk I'd get so much enjoyment out of a cucumber?! Well, my only sadness is that I wish I could buy good tomatoes at the store...The ones I bought are yucky and now that I can really taste again...!
I was also encouraged by a health assessment I had yesterday at my chiropractor. The Assessor (My new friend, Drew-he was GREAT!) knew about hcg so I didn't have to explain it to him. He gave me some "exercises" to do for balance and coordination (I have MS) and explained how I can't do them in reps because of the VLCD, but I could do them until I "feel" it, then stop. I'm hoping to have improved incredibly just by doing that by the time I see him again in December! The other thing he told me that I really appreciated is about a new Whole Foods down the road from the chiropractor! Now, I don't have to drive 40 minutes away for Whole Foods and nothing else, I can tie that chore in with my appt.:)
I hope I can get better with updates. Of course, it's kind of hard since no one is reading anyway...Tell me if you're there!:) I will subscribe to you, too!:)
Tuesday, October 12, 2010
VLCD #3
Sorry I didn't write yesterday. The first news I should share is that I released 2.8 lbs. yesterday and 2.2 lbs. this morning! I did make a vlog, so check it out on www.youtube.com the name is teabeghcg, but you can search with teabeg, I believe. I had a headache most of the day AND I had to go shopping, so I didn't get home until late. Frustratingly, youtube was down last night so I couldn't post my video until today, but I'm glad I got the video made anyway. Today I just had to post it.
Today went SO much better than yesterday, because I didn't have a headache. Also, the shopping trip really helped a LOT!! Today for lunch I had a nice version of chili! It was SO tasty, but too filling, so I really should have split it into 2 portions and had the rest for my snack. Is that allowed? It seems like it should be. I'm not saving it for the next day or anything... Tonight, I intend to make some "chicken soup" with the chicken breast, celery and spices. I'm hoping that will help the chicken to go down! All day yesterday the idea of either chicken or fish made me sick, so I hope I can get it down today. I don't want it to go bad...
So, with my chili, I had some spinach leaves, which I ended up leaving for a while because the chili was so filling. I ate them later and I think I will just work on doing it that way every day. I'm not hungry enough at any one time to eat all 4 things, so I'll just spread them out across the day. It will give me something to do anyway! ha ha!
I made a strawberry drink: handful of strawberries (I was surprised to find fresh organic strawberries yesterday at Woodman's); 1 tablespoon of milk; about 4 drops of orange cream stevia (purchased yesterday, as well); and some mineral water. It was a great snack. I had it yesterday, too, but with frozen (and kind of freezer-tasting) strawberries and some plain stevia. Today's was much better.:)
I'm not NEARLY as nauseated today, but I've been a bit light-headed, so I'm trying to be in tune to my body to see what it needs on a moment-by-moment basis. I had my bible study this morning and was surprised when my stomach growled a couple times. I hadn't eaten anything at that time (9:30 to 11:20). I had only had my water bottle (23 oz.) and no tea, yet, either. Probably, I should have eaten an apple or something, but then I wouldn't have had the chili and the strawberries as my fruit.
At this point, I'm counting my tomatoes as my fruit because, well, they are a fruit. We'll see how it goes. Of course, some of the deviations might not show up as a problem now, but later, when I'm trying to stabilize, so hopefully, this is not a huge deviation!! It's very hard for me to eat fruit as it is--apples tend to constipate me (I know, TMI!) and oranges and grapefruit give me acid reflux so I really only LIKE strawberries. Since they won't be around for much longer, I don't want to get sick of the apples, oranges and grapefruits.
Oh, another new thing is the Grissini bread sticks! I ate one in the car! Well, I was on the way somewhere and didn't want to arrive hungry... Anyway, when I got home, I read more about the breadsticks and found they're called GrissinO, not GrissinI, so I worried until I looked it up and someone said they're the same thing. Phew!! I was sweating!!
I'm really sad that onions and celery count as an entire vegetable, because I would love to have them for FLAVOR in small doses more than by themselves. But tonight, I'm planning to make the chicken soup and it will have celery in it and nothing else. Kind of boring, but let's see what I can do!
I'm hoping my thinking will clear up soon. My mind is so easily distracted and confused and while I do have bouts with that, I don't seem to STAY in it quite so much usually. I know I'm detoxing. I feel it in every cell! Hopefully, this will pass soon, too. Other than that, the hunger is mild. I expected to feel RAVENOUS and for a short time on the first day I was very, very hungry, but nothing I had never been through before. I attributed most of it to coming off of sugar.
Mentally, I'm pretty psyched! I need to release .8 more lbs to be back to my starting weight, but that could happen in the morning, right? That's my prayer, anyway!
Today went SO much better than yesterday, because I didn't have a headache. Also, the shopping trip really helped a LOT!! Today for lunch I had a nice version of chili! It was SO tasty, but too filling, so I really should have split it into 2 portions and had the rest for my snack. Is that allowed? It seems like it should be. I'm not saving it for the next day or anything... Tonight, I intend to make some "chicken soup" with the chicken breast, celery and spices. I'm hoping that will help the chicken to go down! All day yesterday the idea of either chicken or fish made me sick, so I hope I can get it down today. I don't want it to go bad...
So, with my chili, I had some spinach leaves, which I ended up leaving for a while because the chili was so filling. I ate them later and I think I will just work on doing it that way every day. I'm not hungry enough at any one time to eat all 4 things, so I'll just spread them out across the day. It will give me something to do anyway! ha ha!
I made a strawberry drink: handful of strawberries (I was surprised to find fresh organic strawberries yesterday at Woodman's); 1 tablespoon of milk; about 4 drops of orange cream stevia (purchased yesterday, as well); and some mineral water. It was a great snack. I had it yesterday, too, but with frozen (and kind of freezer-tasting) strawberries and some plain stevia. Today's was much better.:)
I'm not NEARLY as nauseated today, but I've been a bit light-headed, so I'm trying to be in tune to my body to see what it needs on a moment-by-moment basis. I had my bible study this morning and was surprised when my stomach growled a couple times. I hadn't eaten anything at that time (9:30 to 11:20). I had only had my water bottle (23 oz.) and no tea, yet, either. Probably, I should have eaten an apple or something, but then I wouldn't have had the chili and the strawberries as my fruit.
At this point, I'm counting my tomatoes as my fruit because, well, they are a fruit. We'll see how it goes. Of course, some of the deviations might not show up as a problem now, but later, when I'm trying to stabilize, so hopefully, this is not a huge deviation!! It's very hard for me to eat fruit as it is--apples tend to constipate me (I know, TMI!) and oranges and grapefruit give me acid reflux so I really only LIKE strawberries. Since they won't be around for much longer, I don't want to get sick of the apples, oranges and grapefruits.
Oh, another new thing is the Grissini bread sticks! I ate one in the car! Well, I was on the way somewhere and didn't want to arrive hungry... Anyway, when I got home, I read more about the breadsticks and found they're called GrissinO, not GrissinI, so I worried until I looked it up and someone said they're the same thing. Phew!! I was sweating!!
I'm really sad that onions and celery count as an entire vegetable, because I would love to have them for FLAVOR in small doses more than by themselves. But tonight, I'm planning to make the chicken soup and it will have celery in it and nothing else. Kind of boring, but let's see what I can do!
I'm hoping my thinking will clear up soon. My mind is so easily distracted and confused and while I do have bouts with that, I don't seem to STAY in it quite so much usually. I know I'm detoxing. I feel it in every cell! Hopefully, this will pass soon, too. Other than that, the hunger is mild. I expected to feel RAVENOUS and for a short time on the first day I was very, very hungry, but nothing I had never been through before. I attributed most of it to coming off of sugar.
Mentally, I'm pretty psyched! I need to release .8 more lbs to be back to my starting weight, but that could happen in the morning, right? That's my prayer, anyway!
Sunday, October 10, 2010
R1 P2 VLCD 1 (again)
I just wanted to record some things that are going on...
One: I ate 390 calories today. I'm not sure why they ended up so low unless it's because I didn't eat any bread sticks or melba toast? Anyway, I ate chicken, then fish--both 100g. I ate cabbage twice, because stupidly that's all I have that's protocol. I didn't buy any extra veggies because we always just have veggies around and I didn't see it as a problem. But tomorrow I'll have to get some cucumbers and lettuce and asparagus...I pre-portioned my fish and chicken for the next two days. I have my beef in the freezer--maybe I should take that out before I go to bed!
So, I have a TERRIBLE headache. I don't want to take anything so I'm just going to go to bed. I guess I'm detoxing, which makes sense since I ate so much junk these past two days. Also, I had weird feelings of being hungry, but NOT, today. I think it could easily be candida because I was feeling "hungry" for sugar and stuff, but I did not have any feeling in my stomach of hunger. I felt "empty", but not hungry--if that makes any sense? Anyway, I'm going to do a detox bath tomorrow night (I have to buy epsom salts) and I'll get some Pau d'Arco tea and some L-glutamine powder. I also want to get some liquid Stevia because my stevia is powdered and it has glucose or something in it!
Lastly, for some reason after eating my last meal (which I was very hungry for and ate fairly quickly.) I didn't feel well. I was nauseated. I still feel that way, but maybe I'm constipated or something...Once I get passed this weird "hunger" that's not hunger (probably sugar cravings or something) I don't think I'll have too much difficulty eating this way. This is more like the "eating to live" way I used to eat, rather than the "living to eat" way that I've been doing the past 10 years.
I am READY for bed! Usually I have a hard time going to bed, but I think I will fall asleep quickly tonight! I don't have anything to do until evening tomorrow, so I'm looking forward to seeing how tomorrow goes! I hope I "release" some weight!!
One: I ate 390 calories today. I'm not sure why they ended up so low unless it's because I didn't eat any bread sticks or melba toast? Anyway, I ate chicken, then fish--both 100g. I ate cabbage twice, because stupidly that's all I have that's protocol. I didn't buy any extra veggies because we always just have veggies around and I didn't see it as a problem. But tomorrow I'll have to get some cucumbers and lettuce and asparagus...I pre-portioned my fish and chicken for the next two days. I have my beef in the freezer--maybe I should take that out before I go to bed!
So, I have a TERRIBLE headache. I don't want to take anything so I'm just going to go to bed. I guess I'm detoxing, which makes sense since I ate so much junk these past two days. Also, I had weird feelings of being hungry, but NOT, today. I think it could easily be candida because I was feeling "hungry" for sugar and stuff, but I did not have any feeling in my stomach of hunger. I felt "empty", but not hungry--if that makes any sense? Anyway, I'm going to do a detox bath tomorrow night (I have to buy epsom salts) and I'll get some Pau d'Arco tea and some L-glutamine powder. I also want to get some liquid Stevia because my stevia is powdered and it has glucose or something in it!
Lastly, for some reason after eating my last meal (which I was very hungry for and ate fairly quickly.) I didn't feel well. I was nauseated. I still feel that way, but maybe I'm constipated or something...Once I get passed this weird "hunger" that's not hunger (probably sugar cravings or something) I don't think I'll have too much difficulty eating this way. This is more like the "eating to live" way I used to eat, rather than the "living to eat" way that I've been doing the past 10 years.
I am READY for bed! Usually I have a hard time going to bed, but I think I will fall asleep quickly tonight! I don't have anything to do until evening tomorrow, so I'm looking forward to seeing how tomorrow goes! I hope I "release" some weight!!
R1 P2 VLCD 1
So, I'm finally on my first VLCD day! I started out kind of hungry, but nothing scary. I felt like I often do after eating a lot the night before. But so far, I'm not "ravenous" or anything. I can say that none of the food I ate for the past 2 days sounds appealing to me... I'm kind of psyched about a little chicken and some cabbage for lunch.:) I'm eating an apple and kind of wondering WHY? I mean, I'm not really too hungry and I'm not a big fan of apples, but I want to try it kind of "legalistically" at first, before I start moving food around. Maybe that sounds dumb, but it's how I think!
I actually felt kind of nauseated this morning! In church, for about an hour, I noticed my tummy wasn't feeling well. I thought it could easily be feeling squeamish from all the fat I ate yesterday! But maybe it was the tea I drank on an empty stomach. I don't usually do stuff like that, but again, I wanted to start my day off with tea since that's how it's kind of written. Although Dr. S. says to go ahead and change things around a bit, it's what he first described. I'm SURE I'll be changing it up as the time goes by...I will find what works for me.
I also felt kind of dizzy and "fuzzy" this morning. I thought I could be feeling fuzzy since I might already be releasing toxins. I know that feeling from fasting in the past. (Fasting for spiritual reasons, not dietary reasons.) The dizziness could be from the same thing. Anyway, it was frustrating to be feeling fuzzy-headed because I had to teach Sunday School today... I hope they got something out of it. (I teach the High School class.)
Today, the Youth Group is going to a Corn Maze. Now, I must say I have looked forward to this--even knowing that I will be on this protocol. However, today the logistics of the whole thing are hitting me! For one, I'm realizing that if we're meeting at the church at 2:45, I will have to eat dinner AFTERWARD. They will be having hot dogs and such (which, thankfully, I don't like!) while there, so we will not be home again until pretty late for eating... I mean, I WILL eat then, but I'm sure I'll be hungry before then! Maybe I'll eat my "lunch" closer to 2:PM so I've eaten already and then it won't feel so long between meals. We get home at 7:PM. Now that I think of it, that's only 5 1/2 hours--I'd better get used to that kind of interval!! (For blood-sugar purposes, I usually eat within 4-hour intervals.)
I'm hoping that part of this time will be a little like fasting in that I will be more likely/able to spend some contemplative time with God. When I fast, I find I want to be alone more to process the feelings I'm going through. I want to process the feelings I have during this time, because I know I have a lot of "renewing of my mind" to do. I need to re-train my mind to think appropriately about food.
One thing I've seen already is that I eat a lot out of HABIT!! After church there are snacks sitting around; I have M&Ms in the dishes around here (I will empty those until I'm used to it); I carry gum and candy in my purse (which I need to empty and let my husband carry his own stuff:) and I'm sure there will be other times that I haven't thought of yet!
Another thing I want to overcome is the confusion between REAL HUNGER and EMOTIONAL EATING! Right now, I can tell that my tummy is growling so there is some real hunger, but I know there will be times (perhaps tonight at the Corn Maze?) where I will have some emotional reasons for eating. I have to process those and not just try to get through them! I want to know WHY I have the triggers that I have.
So far, I have noticed a big emotional trigger and it has to do with my relationship with my husband. There are times throughout the day when I ask him a question and he veers off into another direction to avoid answering. He might change the subject, behave in an ADD-like way, or just not answer. This is a trick that I think is somewhat unique to my husband that he can look directly at you as though he IS answering, then walk away as though we got that cleared up. I end up feeling HIGHLY frustrated and "dissed". I need to get a handle on these emotions because my habit in those situations is CLEARLY to eat.:( Counseling on Wednesday will hopefully shed some light there.
It's only 1:PM-early afternoon-at this point, so I may write again later today to report/record how things went then. I really need to set up the vlog thing, but I need my husband's help to learn how to use the camera. I'm having some "technical difficulties" in getting him to show me!:)
I actually felt kind of nauseated this morning! In church, for about an hour, I noticed my tummy wasn't feeling well. I thought it could easily be feeling squeamish from all the fat I ate yesterday! But maybe it was the tea I drank on an empty stomach. I don't usually do stuff like that, but again, I wanted to start my day off with tea since that's how it's kind of written. Although Dr. S. says to go ahead and change things around a bit, it's what he first described. I'm SURE I'll be changing it up as the time goes by...I will find what works for me.
I also felt kind of dizzy and "fuzzy" this morning. I thought I could be feeling fuzzy since I might already be releasing toxins. I know that feeling from fasting in the past. (Fasting for spiritual reasons, not dietary reasons.) The dizziness could be from the same thing. Anyway, it was frustrating to be feeling fuzzy-headed because I had to teach Sunday School today... I hope they got something out of it. (I teach the High School class.)
Today, the Youth Group is going to a Corn Maze. Now, I must say I have looked forward to this--even knowing that I will be on this protocol. However, today the logistics of the whole thing are hitting me! For one, I'm realizing that if we're meeting at the church at 2:45, I will have to eat dinner AFTERWARD. They will be having hot dogs and such (which, thankfully, I don't like!) while there, so we will not be home again until pretty late for eating... I mean, I WILL eat then, but I'm sure I'll be hungry before then! Maybe I'll eat my "lunch" closer to 2:PM so I've eaten already and then it won't feel so long between meals. We get home at 7:PM. Now that I think of it, that's only 5 1/2 hours--I'd better get used to that kind of interval!! (For blood-sugar purposes, I usually eat within 4-hour intervals.)
I'm hoping that part of this time will be a little like fasting in that I will be more likely/able to spend some contemplative time with God. When I fast, I find I want to be alone more to process the feelings I'm going through. I want to process the feelings I have during this time, because I know I have a lot of "renewing of my mind" to do. I need to re-train my mind to think appropriately about food.
One thing I've seen already is that I eat a lot out of HABIT!! After church there are snacks sitting around; I have M&Ms in the dishes around here (I will empty those until I'm used to it); I carry gum and candy in my purse (which I need to empty and let my husband carry his own stuff:) and I'm sure there will be other times that I haven't thought of yet!
Another thing I want to overcome is the confusion between REAL HUNGER and EMOTIONAL EATING! Right now, I can tell that my tummy is growling so there is some real hunger, but I know there will be times (perhaps tonight at the Corn Maze?) where I will have some emotional reasons for eating. I have to process those and not just try to get through them! I want to know WHY I have the triggers that I have.
So far, I have noticed a big emotional trigger and it has to do with my relationship with my husband. There are times throughout the day when I ask him a question and he veers off into another direction to avoid answering. He might change the subject, behave in an ADD-like way, or just not answer. This is a trick that I think is somewhat unique to my husband that he can look directly at you as though he IS answering, then walk away as though we got that cleared up. I end up feeling HIGHLY frustrated and "dissed". I need to get a handle on these emotions because my habit in those situations is CLEARLY to eat.:( Counseling on Wednesday will hopefully shed some light there.
It's only 1:PM-early afternoon-at this point, so I may write again later today to report/record how things went then. I really need to set up the vlog thing, but I need my husband's help to learn how to use the camera. I'm having some "technical difficulties" in getting him to show me!:)
Saturday, October 9, 2010
loading!
So, today is my second loading day! I can't believe I actually started!! I've been surprised by some of my thoughts as I begin. First, I'm realizing that I have some issues about whether or not I DESERVE to do this! Do I really deserve to lose weight--finally and forever? Do I deserve to be thin after all the problems I caused the last time I was thin? Second, what if I don't do it right? What if I'm one of the ones that has some weird problem that doesn't get figured out for a long time? What if my body rejects the hcg or it just doesn't work for me? Mostly, what if I just don't have what it takes...?
But I'm moving forward, in faith. I'm moving ahead toward my goal and my prize. I've seen others do it and I am sure I'm supposed to try.:) I've concluded that if God has brought this to me, He will see me through it.:)
I've thought a lot about this. I really resonate with Shalom's early vlogs about how she felt God sent this hcg protocol to her. How she had struggled for years and could not release the weight, but when she found this, she felt it was a gift from her Creator. I feel that way, too. The One who created me, knows my needs. He knows what I've been doing to lose and be healthier. He knows how disciplined I've been and He knows I'm ready to have some results. I guess in a way I did have to try those other ways--just to know how/why they don't work. Reading the protocol, so much of it makes sense because of my previous experiences with losing weight the "traditional" way.
Today will be my first vlog. I'll post the link. Last night I joined YouTube, but I was too tired to make the video. I'm pretty intimidated by that, too. I don't really want my fat face up there forever, but even if it doesn't motivate anyone else, it will motivate me to keep going!
I hope that the hcg will kick in and I won't feel hungry soon. I'm pretty surprised that after all that FAT that I ate yesterday, I could still feel hungry this morning! We're going out to eat this morning, but I'm really, really hungry now. I took my hcg about 5 minutes ago, though, so I'm waiting.
One thing that's concerning me: Twice now, I've taken the hcg and almost immediately I started choking! I sometimes wake in the middle of the night choking and I think my doctor told me it's acid reflux causing that. I was on meds for it, but I stopped taking them. (I don't remember why, but every time I start taking it again, I remember why it was and stop again, so I'm just going with that.) Anyway, why would it happen with hcg? Maybe it's the B12--which, by the way, tastes like POO. Colloidal Silver doesn't really have a taste, but the B12 tastes and smells like vitamins-yuck. But really, it's not because of the taste that all of a sudden something in my throat is choking me!? I had to swallow it before 5 minutes was up last night--although I did get up to 4 minutes. This morning I was able to hold it for almost 10 minutes, even though I was choking. I've figured out a way to cough violently without swallowing! Pretty good for someone like me that gets grossed out by that mouth stuff. (I hate to say the word "spit"--ew!!!! Sorry, it grosses me out, but it's actually the easiest word for me to use about it. There are some worse ones and I hope I don't have to use them here...) I thought I was going to have to do injections until I practiced with the CS and found I could do it.:) When I practiced, I had no problem with choking...Hope I can get this figured out.
I still haven't taken any before pictures, but I actually have some. I actually have some on Facebook and I NEVER thought I'd EVER post such pictures there, but you know, it's hard to avoid having your picture taken when you're doing such fun and special things.
Also, I'm trying to figure out when/where I might make this blog known. I would like some input. It's kind of hard writing a blog that no one reads--it's more of a journal, except then again, it's on the Internet so anyone could read it at any time so it's not like I should write as though no one is reading it!
I just hope I do this right. If anyone IS reading, PLEASE pray for me!:)
But I'm moving forward, in faith. I'm moving ahead toward my goal and my prize. I've seen others do it and I am sure I'm supposed to try.:) I've concluded that if God has brought this to me, He will see me through it.:)
I've thought a lot about this. I really resonate with Shalom's early vlogs about how she felt God sent this hcg protocol to her. How she had struggled for years and could not release the weight, but when she found this, she felt it was a gift from her Creator. I feel that way, too. The One who created me, knows my needs. He knows what I've been doing to lose and be healthier. He knows how disciplined I've been and He knows I'm ready to have some results. I guess in a way I did have to try those other ways--just to know how/why they don't work. Reading the protocol, so much of it makes sense because of my previous experiences with losing weight the "traditional" way.
Today will be my first vlog. I'll post the link. Last night I joined YouTube, but I was too tired to make the video. I'm pretty intimidated by that, too. I don't really want my fat face up there forever, but even if it doesn't motivate anyone else, it will motivate me to keep going!
I hope that the hcg will kick in and I won't feel hungry soon. I'm pretty surprised that after all that FAT that I ate yesterday, I could still feel hungry this morning! We're going out to eat this morning, but I'm really, really hungry now. I took my hcg about 5 minutes ago, though, so I'm waiting.
One thing that's concerning me: Twice now, I've taken the hcg and almost immediately I started choking! I sometimes wake in the middle of the night choking and I think my doctor told me it's acid reflux causing that. I was on meds for it, but I stopped taking them. (I don't remember why, but every time I start taking it again, I remember why it was and stop again, so I'm just going with that.) Anyway, why would it happen with hcg? Maybe it's the B12--which, by the way, tastes like POO. Colloidal Silver doesn't really have a taste, but the B12 tastes and smells like vitamins-yuck. But really, it's not because of the taste that all of a sudden something in my throat is choking me!? I had to swallow it before 5 minutes was up last night--although I did get up to 4 minutes. This morning I was able to hold it for almost 10 minutes, even though I was choking. I've figured out a way to cough violently without swallowing! Pretty good for someone like me that gets grossed out by that mouth stuff. (I hate to say the word "spit"--ew!!!! Sorry, it grosses me out, but it's actually the easiest word for me to use about it. There are some worse ones and I hope I don't have to use them here...) I thought I was going to have to do injections until I practiced with the CS and found I could do it.:) When I practiced, I had no problem with choking...Hope I can get this figured out.
I still haven't taken any before pictures, but I actually have some. I actually have some on Facebook and I NEVER thought I'd EVER post such pictures there, but you know, it's hard to avoid having your picture taken when you're doing such fun and special things.
Also, I'm trying to figure out when/where I might make this blog known. I would like some input. It's kind of hard writing a blog that no one reads--it's more of a journal, except then again, it's on the Internet so anyone could read it at any time so it's not like I should write as though no one is reading it!
I just hope I do this right. If anyone IS reading, PLEASE pray for me!:)
Monday, October 4, 2010
insecurities...
Well, I'm afraid to start...but I'm also sick. It doesn't seem to be a good time to start, but yesterday, when I wasn't sick yet, I knew I was petrified! So, I'm thinking about why I'm so afraid to start the hcg. First of all, it's not because I don't think it will work. I KNOW it will work. But I think I'm afraid I will do it wrong. Sadly, I'm probably more prepared than most! I've read and read and read some more! I have my hcg, I bought mixing needles and syringes from the farm/feed store(!) and I got some smaller syringes from Walgreens. I could not get needles from Walgreens-even when I called them "mixing needles" and said they could be quite big.
I've got a scale and a webcam, although the Dear Man can't get it to work on our desktop computer and I will have to work it from here until we get a new desktop. Maybe today I will pre-weigh my food since my throat is so sore and I can barely swallow... My thoughts aren't coming very clearly either! I feel like I'm writing more randomly than usual!
There is one more thing I'm worried about. I just found out (on Thursday) that I have an unresolved gynecological issue. I don't know if hcg will make it worse...although, for all I know, it will make it better!:) But it's a worrisome issue and I don't want to mess with it, really. I also won't want to stop in case I have to have some type of surgery in the midst of everything...ARGH! That is frustrating me! I'm scared to start, but I just want to DO IT so that I can find out...
At this point, the best I can do it think about it more, get over this cold, then start it unless I hear otherwise from people about my issue. I thought I would have started by now...it's even written in my calendar...
Bummer.
I've got a scale and a webcam, although the Dear Man can't get it to work on our desktop computer and I will have to work it from here until we get a new desktop. Maybe today I will pre-weigh my food since my throat is so sore and I can barely swallow... My thoughts aren't coming very clearly either! I feel like I'm writing more randomly than usual!
There is one more thing I'm worried about. I just found out (on Thursday) that I have an unresolved gynecological issue. I don't know if hcg will make it worse...although, for all I know, it will make it better!:) But it's a worrisome issue and I don't want to mess with it, really. I also won't want to stop in case I have to have some type of surgery in the midst of everything...ARGH! That is frustrating me! I'm scared to start, but I just want to DO IT so that I can find out...
At this point, the best I can do it think about it more, get over this cold, then start it unless I hear otherwise from people about my issue. I thought I would have started by now...it's even written in my calendar...
Bummer.
Thursday, September 30, 2010
U-turn
So, I've changed my mind again...I will not write again until I start hcg. I decided not to start the hcg until I get back on Monday. Mostly, because I need some time for shopping and I don't have time before I leave. There are still things I need/want to feel prepared... I should have shopped already, but didn't have/make time. I hope I'm not already subconsciously trying to sabotage my efforts!:(
I also have not finished reading through the protocol! I can't really start without that!! But I've gotten bogged down with some of the psychological suggestions Dr. Simeons goes through. I will be blogging more about that--and even vlogging about it--soon.
So, I will go away for the weekend and come home and start the protocol. I didn't really want to be away when I started anyway since I want to start my vlog when I start my experience as well. We invested in a webcam, so I don't want to waste it!:)
Tonight I'm going to be early. I hope to get on a schedule of early to bed and early to rise. I think it will really help with the protocol to just go to bed when I'm hungry at night. I'm also looking forward to some detox baths. I hear they really induce good sleep.:)
So, until Monday, October 4th, I will not be blogging. Out of sight, but hopefully, not out of mind!
I also have not finished reading through the protocol! I can't really start without that!! But I've gotten bogged down with some of the psychological suggestions Dr. Simeons goes through. I will be blogging more about that--and even vlogging about it--soon.
So, I will go away for the weekend and come home and start the protocol. I didn't really want to be away when I started anyway since I want to start my vlog when I start my experience as well. We invested in a webcam, so I don't want to waste it!:)
Tonight I'm going to be early. I hope to get on a schedule of early to bed and early to rise. I think it will really help with the protocol to just go to bed when I'm hungry at night. I'm also looking forward to some detox baths. I hear they really induce good sleep.:)
So, until Monday, October 4th, I will not be blogging. Out of sight, but hopefully, not out of mind!
Tuesday, September 28, 2010
new plan...
I have changed my mind! (Woman's prerogative) I'm going to start loading on Oct. 1st!! I really can't wait. Even though I will be out of town, I felt I could stand to load while there. In fact, it may make everything easier if I load on fatty restaurant food and I don't have to have any in the house, if you know what I mean?!
I'm so excited and I wish I could start now, but I just can't see doing that. I would be such a DUD and I don't know how I would manage to prepare my food while visiting...But I will have two days of VLCD while my cousin is still visiting so I'll definitely still be cooking. I was thinking of making a pot of chili (not a favorite of mine, but good for cool/cold weather) and the next day we can eat on the way to the airport--or I could make a pot of spaghetti (also not a favorite of mine). Since they're not favorites, I'm hoping to be able to stand the smell...:) If I can't, they are simple enough dishes that my family can cook them.
I've been telling more people than I had intended. I guess lying about being on the "Butt Diet" (like Mamaclok) did not come easily for me!lol I wish I could think of something, but I couldn't. The other thing is that I'm in some small groups and I really wanted prayer for this. I will need a lot of support and prayer support mostly.
I wish I had more to write about, but everything is very boring now because I haven't started. Tomorrow I take my measurements and I do weigh myself every day, but I am not quite ready to post them!:( I feel like it will be MUCH easier to post them (along with before and after photos) after I've lost something.:)
I'm very encouraged by everyone on the hcgdieters group and by so many of the before and after pictures. I hope to be a similar encouragement with my own story some day! I don't know of anyone else around me that has done hcg. So, maybe my story will encourage those that live near and around me.
I was thinking about this. I mean, if someone didn't want to tell others about hcg then I wouldn't know if they had lost weight this way, yet I feel all the people I do know of that have lost weight have been truthful with me about how they lost it! Too few have lost and too many are still overweight and obese. It's my dream to help others find freedom from this in their lives!! I don't think I would become a "coach" or anything, but I would certainly walk through it with someone. I would also recommend any of the amazing coaches that are out there!
Can't wait to get started on the new healthy me!! I'm actually proud of myself for researching and doing this. It's taking some guts!lol
I'm so excited and I wish I could start now, but I just can't see doing that. I would be such a DUD and I don't know how I would manage to prepare my food while visiting...But I will have two days of VLCD while my cousin is still visiting so I'll definitely still be cooking. I was thinking of making a pot of chili (not a favorite of mine, but good for cool/cold weather) and the next day we can eat on the way to the airport--or I could make a pot of spaghetti (also not a favorite of mine). Since they're not favorites, I'm hoping to be able to stand the smell...:) If I can't, they are simple enough dishes that my family can cook them.
I've been telling more people than I had intended. I guess lying about being on the "Butt Diet" (like Mamaclok) did not come easily for me!lol I wish I could think of something, but I couldn't. The other thing is that I'm in some small groups and I really wanted prayer for this. I will need a lot of support and prayer support mostly.
I wish I had more to write about, but everything is very boring now because I haven't started. Tomorrow I take my measurements and I do weigh myself every day, but I am not quite ready to post them!:( I feel like it will be MUCH easier to post them (along with before and after photos) after I've lost something.:)
I'm very encouraged by everyone on the hcgdieters group and by so many of the before and after pictures. I hope to be a similar encouragement with my own story some day! I don't know of anyone else around me that has done hcg. So, maybe my story will encourage those that live near and around me.
I was thinking about this. I mean, if someone didn't want to tell others about hcg then I wouldn't know if they had lost weight this way, yet I feel all the people I do know of that have lost weight have been truthful with me about how they lost it! Too few have lost and too many are still overweight and obese. It's my dream to help others find freedom from this in their lives!! I don't think I would become a "coach" or anything, but I would certainly walk through it with someone. I would also recommend any of the amazing coaches that are out there!
Can't wait to get started on the new healthy me!! I'm actually proud of myself for researching and doing this. It's taking some guts!lol
Saturday, September 25, 2010
Arrival...
The hcg is here! The hcg is here! Things are gonna start happening to me now! (Quote from a movie--"paraphrased to suit my needs"--anyone know what movie?:) I almost want to start today, but I know I would have problems in WI. I have to weigh my food (especially the meats) and prepare it specially. I couldn't do that there-at least I'll have enough OTHER issues to deal with than to mess with that.
So, my plan is still to start loading on the 4th. I'm considering loading on the 1st and 2nd-because I know we will be eating a lot those days anyway. I can then not eat breakfast on the 3rd, take some apples and melba toasts/breadsticks for the trip and eat the rest of my food when I get home. Many people express extreme hunger on the first day of VLCD (Very Low Calorie Diet) so I would have to also prepare by bringing teas that I'm allowed to have. Hmmmm....Still considering this.
I just might do it. I'm so excited about starting! I keep thinking about this past 10 years and how long it took me to gain the weight and totally mess up my metabolism! Now, I want to eradicate all the negative effects in just a few months? In some ways it seems ludicrous! Yet, I've seen so many true stories on the hcgdieters yahoo group and v-logs and I just really respect what Dr. Simeons has to say. He "had me at hello"!
I'm going to post Dr. Simeons Pounds and Inches here and someday, if I learn how to do it, I'll put it on the side in a links section or whatever for people to refer to! But here it is: http://hcgdietinfo.com/HCG_Diet_Dr_Simeons_Manuscript.htm I hope anyone reading this--whether lurking or an actual "follower"--will be inspired as I was.:)
Later!
So, my plan is still to start loading on the 4th. I'm considering loading on the 1st and 2nd-because I know we will be eating a lot those days anyway. I can then not eat breakfast on the 3rd, take some apples and melba toasts/breadsticks for the trip and eat the rest of my food when I get home. Many people express extreme hunger on the first day of VLCD (Very Low Calorie Diet) so I would have to also prepare by bringing teas that I'm allowed to have. Hmmmm....Still considering this.
I just might do it. I'm so excited about starting! I keep thinking about this past 10 years and how long it took me to gain the weight and totally mess up my metabolism! Now, I want to eradicate all the negative effects in just a few months? In some ways it seems ludicrous! Yet, I've seen so many true stories on the hcgdieters yahoo group and v-logs and I just really respect what Dr. Simeons has to say. He "had me at hello"!
I'm going to post Dr. Simeons Pounds and Inches here and someday, if I learn how to do it, I'll put it on the side in a links section or whatever for people to refer to! But here it is: http://hcgdietinfo.com/HCG_Diet_Dr_Simeons_Manuscript.htm I hope anyone reading this--whether lurking or an actual "follower"--will be inspired as I was.:)
Later!
Friday, September 24, 2010
looking to the future...
So, I'm anxiously awaiting the arrival of my hcg! I checked the tracking number on usps.com and it's in CHICAGO!! Yay! That means I should have it tomorrow, right? It appears to have been shipped directly from Hong Kong to Chicago--which surprised me because I thought it would come through New York or something. Anyway, the point is, it's almost here and I can't wait!
Now, that seems a little strange considering I'm not even starting until October 4th, but I will feel so relieved to have it here. It'll be my little security blanket...
I'm reading Dr. Simeon's protocol and this man sounds so compassionate and SMART! I love reading his words because I feel as though he really understands. I love this statement (referring to obesity): "I have always held that overeating is the result of the disorder, not its cause" because the majority of "fat" people that I know actually eat LESS than the majority of "skinny" people I know. It always amazed me that my overweight friends would have to watch everything they ate and so many skinny people would eat and eat and eat and not gain weight! I've known of technically obese people that have eaten as little as 600 calories per day and remained overweight-although they were tired all the time and looked gray. I have known thin people that would eat constantly throughout the day and they had the most amazing energy levels and enthusiasm!
Well, I don't want to keep eating so little and yet gaining weight so easily. I have only recently (in the past few months) challenged myself to eat and talk about eating in front of people as though I were thin. It has been quite the experience because people really give you LOOKS!LOL They really look at me in the way that always caused me to cringe inside and eat as little as possible--even alone (as though they would find out!!). I have also noted, by the way, that while I'm eating as though I'm thin, I have not gained one pound! Eating throughout the day--without thinking about it or over-analyzing it--has not caused me to gain weight, but neither has it caused me to lose any. So, that's why I'm going to do the hcg. I'm going to lose the weight and then live like I'm skinny for the rest of my days...
I can live with that!
Now, that seems a little strange considering I'm not even starting until October 4th, but I will feel so relieved to have it here. It'll be my little security blanket...
I'm reading Dr. Simeon's protocol and this man sounds so compassionate and SMART! I love reading his words because I feel as though he really understands. I love this statement (referring to obesity): "I have always held that overeating is the result of the disorder, not its cause" because the majority of "fat" people that I know actually eat LESS than the majority of "skinny" people I know. It always amazed me that my overweight friends would have to watch everything they ate and so many skinny people would eat and eat and eat and not gain weight! I've known of technically obese people that have eaten as little as 600 calories per day and remained overweight-although they were tired all the time and looked gray. I have known thin people that would eat constantly throughout the day and they had the most amazing energy levels and enthusiasm!
Well, I don't want to keep eating so little and yet gaining weight so easily. I have only recently (in the past few months) challenged myself to eat and talk about eating in front of people as though I were thin. It has been quite the experience because people really give you LOOKS!LOL They really look at me in the way that always caused me to cringe inside and eat as little as possible--even alone (as though they would find out!!). I have also noted, by the way, that while I'm eating as though I'm thin, I have not gained one pound! Eating throughout the day--without thinking about it or over-analyzing it--has not caused me to gain weight, but neither has it caused me to lose any. So, that's why I'm going to do the hcg. I'm going to lose the weight and then live like I'm skinny for the rest of my days...
I can live with that!
figuring it out...
I'm not writing much at first, because I'm still figuring out everything. Reading the Pounds and Inches protocol...reading the hcgdieters and newbies groups on yahoo...watching YouTube vlogs of people doing hcg...preparing to make my own vlog!! (Yes, I'm very excited about the last thing!:) I'm still waiting for my hcg to arrive--I have NO idea what's going on THERE! I ordered my hcg from pharmacy escrow 11 days ago (Sept. 13) and have watched it be in Hong Kong and right now it's in "Origin Post is Preparing Shipment" mode...whatever that is?
So, while I'm waiting, I'm getting ready. I have my scale (OXO brand that we bought from Amazon); I have my webcam (that we also ordered on Amazon); I have SOME of my food; I'm reading and re-reading the protocol; I'm trying to learn from others' mistakes by reading the hcg yahoo groups...AND trying to decide if I should do the Rx hcg sub-lingually or as an injection? At first I thought I'd do it sub-lingually since I used to have to give myself a shot every day on an MS medication and I hated it. But then I realized that I can't really hold anything in my mouth for any length of time so I would HAVE to take it by injection! I figured, at that point, that at least I knew HOW to do the injections... But in the end, I kept practicing with the Colloidal Silver and B12 drops until I could hold it in my mouth for 5 minutes or longer, and now I CAN!:)
Mamaclok says she holds it for 15 minutes and if I could get to that, I would surely do it! But I think the minimum is 5 minutes and now I know I can do that--so I'm good!:)
I also thought I should do injections because you use less--so the three 5000 ius of hcg that I ordered would last longer. But then there is all that needle care, etc... Hcg isn't THAT expensive! I can always order more--right? Plus, I think the 5000 iu size will keep as long as I'm using the amounts necessary for the sub-lingual method. I'm afraid I ordered the wrong size to do injections.
Then, I considered that if I decide it's working for me and I'm not straining to follow the protocol, I could choose to continue if I'm doing it sublingually. Also, I won't have to stop once per week because of the immunity issue. Now, I saw that Mamaclok apparently had an immunity issue and perhaps I would, too, but I feel I could recognize the signs and I'm prepared for that.
My pattern is of losing to lose weight only to a certain "plateau" and not losing further--no matter how I adjust my eating/exercise habits. The last few times I have lost weight, I've lost it to the 170s. I'm sorry, but I just can't believe I'm supposed to weigh 170 when I weighed 135-150 for many, many years before I took steroids!! But, if I seem to "stall" in the 170s, I'm going to stick it out. I'm going to continue with the protocol and see if I can't get past it. I can only do this if I use the sub-lingual method.
So...I really think I'm going to try the sub-lingual method!
If my hcg ever gets out of Hong Kong I'm ON MY WAY!!:)
So, while I'm waiting, I'm getting ready. I have my scale (OXO brand that we bought from Amazon); I have my webcam (that we also ordered on Amazon); I have SOME of my food; I'm reading and re-reading the protocol; I'm trying to learn from others' mistakes by reading the hcg yahoo groups...AND trying to decide if I should do the Rx hcg sub-lingually or as an injection? At first I thought I'd do it sub-lingually since I used to have to give myself a shot every day on an MS medication and I hated it. But then I realized that I can't really hold anything in my mouth for any length of time so I would HAVE to take it by injection! I figured, at that point, that at least I knew HOW to do the injections... But in the end, I kept practicing with the Colloidal Silver and B12 drops until I could hold it in my mouth for 5 minutes or longer, and now I CAN!:)
Mamaclok says she holds it for 15 minutes and if I could get to that, I would surely do it! But I think the minimum is 5 minutes and now I know I can do that--so I'm good!:)
I also thought I should do injections because you use less--so the three 5000 ius of hcg that I ordered would last longer. But then there is all that needle care, etc... Hcg isn't THAT expensive! I can always order more--right? Plus, I think the 5000 iu size will keep as long as I'm using the amounts necessary for the sub-lingual method. I'm afraid I ordered the wrong size to do injections.
Then, I considered that if I decide it's working for me and I'm not straining to follow the protocol, I could choose to continue if I'm doing it sublingually. Also, I won't have to stop once per week because of the immunity issue. Now, I saw that Mamaclok apparently had an immunity issue and perhaps I would, too, but I feel I could recognize the signs and I'm prepared for that.
My pattern is of losing to lose weight only to a certain "plateau" and not losing further--no matter how I adjust my eating/exercise habits. The last few times I have lost weight, I've lost it to the 170s. I'm sorry, but I just can't believe I'm supposed to weigh 170 when I weighed 135-150 for many, many years before I took steroids!! But, if I seem to "stall" in the 170s, I'm going to stick it out. I'm going to continue with the protocol and see if I can't get past it. I can only do this if I use the sub-lingual method.
So...I really think I'm going to try the sub-lingual method!
If my hcg ever gets out of Hong Kong I'm ON MY WAY!!:)
Monday, September 20, 2010
nervous...
I'm getting ready to start hcg in about 2 weeks! I'm super excited, but also very, very nervous... I have done so many diets in the past--I hope this will be my LAST! I've done a lot of research about hcg and I feel that it has the most likelihood of being my last "diet"--although hcg is considered a "protocol" not a "diet". The medical definition for the word protocol is: "the plan for carrying out a scientific study or a patient's treatment regimen." The hcg protocol was developed by an doctor in Italy named Dr. A.T.W.Simeons. He wrote a paper called "Pounds and Inches" which you can find online if you google it.
What drew me to the hcg protocol was the claim that it will reset my metabolism-or my hypothalamus gland. After rounds of steroids and other medications for MS, I have gotten to the point where I think my metabolism got "re-set" at a higher point. Losing weight since being on steroids has been SO HARD, but even worse was KEEPING it off! After losing 22 lbs on one diet program (considered one of the "healthiest") I hit a "plateau". After a few weeks, I started getting all kinds of advice about what I should do to get unstuck. The problem was, I was DOING all those things! (At least the smart ones.:) After a little over a year and a half of trying to lose more weight, I finally decided to try their maintenance program. Within one week I had gained more than 10 lbs back! Almost half of what I'd lost! I freaked out and tried to go back, but my body SCREAMED at me not to eat so few calories... So, in the end, I gained it all back-PLUS some... It's an age-old story and I've heard it from many people.
Well, this was the 3rd or 4th time I had lost a significant amount only to gain it back and my husband expressed that he was worried about me. I got mad about that-because I so desperately wanted to try again! I was getting so tired of being this weight! For almost 10 years now, I've been carrying an extra 50-60 lbs over my already 15 lbs to heavy weight. I don't feel like "Myself". I feel like I am a prisoner in this large body and it keeps me from living life to the fullest!
I don't want to lose and gain and lose and gain anymore, but I also don't want to get stuck losing weight only to end up still stuck at 40 lbs overweight! I am hoping hcg will get me over the hump!
This is my hope. I would love it if some people would find my blog and choose to follow my journey. Perhaps it will inspire you to try it also!
God bless you in your efforts and if you pray, please pray for mine!
What drew me to the hcg protocol was the claim that it will reset my metabolism-or my hypothalamus gland. After rounds of steroids and other medications for MS, I have gotten to the point where I think my metabolism got "re-set" at a higher point. Losing weight since being on steroids has been SO HARD, but even worse was KEEPING it off! After losing 22 lbs on one diet program (considered one of the "healthiest") I hit a "plateau". After a few weeks, I started getting all kinds of advice about what I should do to get unstuck. The problem was, I was DOING all those things! (At least the smart ones.:) After a little over a year and a half of trying to lose more weight, I finally decided to try their maintenance program. Within one week I had gained more than 10 lbs back! Almost half of what I'd lost! I freaked out and tried to go back, but my body SCREAMED at me not to eat so few calories... So, in the end, I gained it all back-PLUS some... It's an age-old story and I've heard it from many people.
Well, this was the 3rd or 4th time I had lost a significant amount only to gain it back and my husband expressed that he was worried about me. I got mad about that-because I so desperately wanted to try again! I was getting so tired of being this weight! For almost 10 years now, I've been carrying an extra 50-60 lbs over my already 15 lbs to heavy weight. I don't feel like "Myself". I feel like I am a prisoner in this large body and it keeps me from living life to the fullest!
I don't want to lose and gain and lose and gain anymore, but I also don't want to get stuck losing weight only to end up still stuck at 40 lbs overweight! I am hoping hcg will get me over the hump!
This is my hope. I would love it if some people would find my blog and choose to follow my journey. Perhaps it will inspire you to try it also!
God bless you in your efforts and if you pray, please pray for mine!
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